lesbian disaster

i do think the most insane thing sticking with me rn is the fact that THE vocalizations we’ve been hearing since s1 have actually been the girls all along at the moment they truly became feral and one with the wilderness like that is why i will ride for this show forever are you kidding me i love you yellerjacker<3

obsessed with the knife sheath melissa gifts shauna this episode. it's handmade. it's stitches are perfect. it's personalized. it's labeled with shauna's initial. it's useful. it fits her knife perfectly. there's a strap so it's easy to carry around. it's a true gift. it's wrapped in bark and adorned with berries like a present. it has nothing to do, overtly, with the wilderness. it has nothing to do with her baby. it's solely about shauna. it not only acknowledges, but embraces the butcher in her. it keeps her main tool preserved. it makes her knife safer for shauna to carry. it displays a sincere understanding and acceptance of who shauna is and who she has become in a way words never really could

once again jackie is much meaner in shauna’s dream than she ever was in reality. her subconscious is always making jackie crueler and meaner so that she can assuage her guilt over contributing to jackie’s death. over eating her! if jackie was cruel and cutting then maybe she deserved it! maybe it was her own fault she ended out in the cold that night! if she’d been nicer she would never have been kicked out! if she’d been nicer she never would have been eaten! if if if. because none of it really matters anyway. no matter what shauna’s subconscious tries to do to tamper down her guilt, to make it all jackie’s fault, shauna will still blame herself. she will still loathe and despise herself. the guilt will be a part of her for the rest of her life.

“sometimes it’s hard to show love the way we want to” broke me a little because losing jackie was a direct result of her inability to express love in a healthy way and once she lost her baby too any light left in her was put out… now she’s a mother to a daughter she doesn’t know how to love properly and she’s never been able to get it quite right.

one of the best decisions yellowjackets has ever made is reverting the women back into girls at their most vulnerable moments. shauna when she kills adam, nat laying her head in lottie's lap, misty seeing young natalie in the mirror, misty in the morgue seeing lottie because this truly hammers home that their lives stopped the moment that plane went down and that no matter how much time has passed by, they're still those teenagers girls who were on their way to their football game and lost 19 months of their lives trying to survive.