Shalspeaks

I love the way my pen moves

Fast and sometimes slowly

On the white sheets of paper

can see my tears, my heart-shaped or slashes

With every emotion, I can express

So gracefully

I still use my paper and pen to write my poetry

The feeling of emptiness embrace

How long was I crying

I don’t even know

It was becoming

A every day joke

But sometimes you need to cry so hard, my love

Cry, just cry

Tears dried up even

Now I knew

My heart was once’s

Again

Open

Pic prompt from Facebook

When I whisper his name

With pain and tears

With broken heart

And smile

That would brighten the sky

I want to inhale you

I want to feel

Your neck on my lips

Stay close to me

I want to taste you

Your skin on my tongue

Stay close to me

I want to touch your body

Stay close to me

I want to hear your heartbeat

Next to mine

To see if this is even worth a fight

I said a prayer tonight

To see if you were even mine

I said a prayer tonight

To go against the odds

And see if you would show up

I said a prayer tonight

To end it all otherwise

I said a prayer tonight

To help me move on

I said a prayer tonight

That my last tear spelled

Your name tonight

Because you are and will be in

Behind this clock

Like there is a prize

Inside, maybe my life

Will time stop the pain

I feel inside

Time heals all wounds

And make the pain go away

Time will tell

Where you will be?

Don't be late!

Didn't forget to be on time!

What are we running after?

The clock of life and we are nothing but slaves to what we called

Time

Showed me what

I couldn't see

Life was perfect

But I couldn't feel

Did I even know?

What was I missing?

Did I even care to look?

What was I feeling?

Did I ever hear?

Cries Inside

Did I love?

Who was I

Broken mirror

Showed me a piece of me

Still, Inside that I buried

Broken mirror

Gave me the strength

To once

Try to put that mirror again

Yes, it might not be perfect

But

I am not either

And wine

Perfect combination

Intoxication

My face

With my big brow eyes

Cute button nose

Perfect face oval shape

And those lips

He adored

But then the pencils started to move

Around and around

Lines after lines

It becomes clear

That there was a fight

As I was trying to put a smile

on that perfect face

All I could see was the chaos inside

The war between who I was and who I am becoming

I couldn't recognize myself

So I threw the paper

But that picture still haunts me inside

I pour myself tonight

Intoxicating

With pleasure

I feel you inside

intertwine

We are making love

I still whisper your name

behind these wounds

I still feel the pain

behind these wounded

I still cry every night

behind these wounds

my scar still bleeds for you tonight

Behind these wounds

my heart still breaks

Behind these woynds

But, I am trying to

Stand still

Trying to calm the chaos

Trying to remember my peace

But that storm is strong

I can't control it

I need to be strong enough

Let me be alone tonight

Traveling throughout the galaxy

Making my dreams into reality

I see the stars shinning

I can see the love binding

Finding my soul

Is within my reach

But let me be alone tonight

One is future

One I control

One controls me

Crying on one side

Laughing in the other

Desire I seek

Fear I fear

One shows me good

One shows me bad

One is Devil

September night

When we make love

For the last time

When you traced

a Crescent moon

On my back

And called me your “moon for life”

Now I still cry and smile