Uh, April Fools?
I'm going to ramble for a bit.
My back was seriously messed up, but it wasn't what kept me out for the full year. I was incapacitated for a couple weeks... I saw someone special for it and was able to make the necessary changes to my life to prevent something like that from happening again. Still, the whole ordeal didn't do much to help my confidence.
2024 was a terrible year for me. After fixing my back, there was a lot of other terrible personal stuff that happened. Everything just decided to happen all at once that year. I don't really want to talk about it. It was exhausting.
Now that it's 2025, I've been wanting to try updating again. However, now I've got even more stuff to deal with. It's nothing necessarily bad this time - To put it plainly, I need to find a new place to live. Don't worry, I'm not in trouble or hurting for anything... It's just that this is another one of those all-consuming life things that I'm unable to not worry about. I can't bring myself to think about spending two or three hours a day making an update when I've got stuff like this staring me down. It doesn't feel right.
But it also doesn't feel right just to leave things alone... When I first started all this, I was in university and had no problem committing several afternoons a week to this sort of thing. Maybe the point is to care less? Maybe it doesn't matter that anything's happening, and that for a short little while every day, I can instead focus on the things that I want to happen instead of the things that are happening to me?
I don't know when I should try updating again, is what I'm saying. I'm scared that something else will wedge itself into my life again, but at the same time, I shouldn't let this stuff get to me. I think I know what the answer is, but I'm still thinking about it. Updates for either adventure will resume... eventually. I still don't know when. Just know that I'm doing okay. I haven't gone anywhere, I just haven't had the energy to say much.
