and so we grow

Today was one of those idyllic summer days and I couldn't be more grateful

M is in art camp this week so I walked her there this AM. Was a perfect breezy 70 degree summer morning and the perfect 7 minute walk down the street

We then spent ALLLL day in the pool. 12-6pm in the backyard. It was 🤌🏻

Went on a pre-dinner walk with the babes and they wanted an impromptu photoshoot. Then came home to make citrus herb shrimp skewers on the grill. First grill of the season!

I think it's a really important app for me and my best friends to stay feeling connected to each other. We just snap each other all day every day about what's going on in our lives and it's a way for us to feel connected

ANYWAY, this is so ridiculous, but I have really severe diagnosed anxiety. It only manifests in certain ways though. And because it's anxiety, it doesn't make sense to other people and I don't know how to explain it. But like my anxiety is clinically very severe, but it's not a regular constant in my life that a lot of times I convince myself I don't even have it

Meanwhile, right now I just noticed I accidentally posted a selfie of me at work on Snapchat stories earlier today. No big deal right? People post selfies all the time. To me? End of the fucking world. This is worst case scenario for my anxiety. Like I am having an absolute meltdown over this. I am shaking, my heart is pounding, I am probably gonna go cry for a little bit. I had to delete the entire app off of my phone because I'm having an actual panic attack over accidentally posting a normal selfie. My best friend posts selfies all the time and they're hot and amazing and she's a goddess and I love that for her. Can't explain why for me it's the opposite and end of the world.

It's one of my guilty pleasure series. To the point I could quote.... a lot of it.... I've reread the original 4 books so many times I can't even tell you. Plus then Summer and Colin's book? Yes. I've been reading them for the 10 years they've been out. College me was going through college with them!

I recently read the spin off books about Garrets kids!

Renovations on new house are happppening!

It's actually been a really great weekend in terms of burnout. I've pretty much left all responsibility at my house and adult wise and just have really leaned into spending time with the kids. But I feel the edges of the mess creeping in because of how trashed my house is 

W's bday Friday, yesterday we were at an art and wine festival from 11am-6pm 🫠 they have a children's garden area and it was a BLAST. We visited my husband at work. Did arts and crafts for literally 4 hours. Got lunch. Danced to live music. Was a blast

Time to celebrate our boyyyyy

It's been seven hours straight of outdoor time and I am so grateful and also so tired. I don't understand how they are outside swimming right now and I am officially in a sweatshirt now that the sun has gone down. 

Had a goood Mother's Day!

Honestly, it started a little rough. I worked and work was a hot mess. I was in a horrible mood and on the verge of tears. I actually plan to message my boss today and ask to step back from Sundays. They're just not good for my mental health.

But I came home to the kids having decorated and surprised me! My husband took them to the store while I was gone and they got me balloons, cake, flowers, and this rainbow tinsel curtain. The bigs had made me cards and it was so special 🩷 had no idea they did this I was shocked.

Then we took the kids to our Zoo for their lantern festival and had a blast. It was so interactive. It was stunning and such a good night. Didn't get home until 10:30pm 🫠

Madden: "Megara is acting so sassy. Why is she so sassy? Gosh"