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Why you should watch Brooklyn Nine-Nine

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1. Hot chocolate of all kinds. 2. Pyjama days thanks to the great excuse, “it’s too cold outside”. 3. Dark nail polish. 4. Thick duvet covers and lots of blankets. 5. Christmas. And everything leading up to it. 6. New Yankee Candle fragrances. 7. Homemade soup. 8. Nights in by the fire watching re-runs of ‘Friends’. 9. Big, fluffy jumpers so you can be as bloated as you like. 10. Snow. 11. Champagne on New Year’s eve. 12. Fuzzy socks. 13. Rosy cheeks. 14. Wrapping Christmas presents and writing on name tags. 15. Hot apple cider. 16. The look of untouched snow. Then crunching it for the first time. 17. Christmas movies. ‘Home Alone’, 'Elf’, 'The Holiday’, etc. Yesssssssssssss. 18. Making New Year’s resolutions. 19. Candy canes. 20. Not having to deal with pesky insects and their pesky itchy bites. 21. Chunky winter boots. 22. Christmas carols. 23. New pyjamas, just because. 24. Watching fireworks around a bonfire with good friends. 25. Kisses in the snow. 26. 'Fairytale of New York’ by The Pogues. 27. Not having to shave your legs because jeans. And leggings. And tights. 28. Warm bubble baths. 29. Halloween. 30. All kinds of parties. 31. That smell in the air. You know the one. 32. Christmas markets that are full of goodies and tiny crafty things you don’t need but have to buy anyway. 33. Baking. 34. How light it gets in the early morning. 35. Mulled wine. 36. Ear muffs. 37. Being all cosy and wrapped up in bed when it’s miserable outside. 38. Toasting marshmallows. 39. No humidity. Happy hair. 40. Glitterrrrrrr. 41. Seeing a robin for the first time. 42. Babies experiencing their first Christmas. 43. Snow ball fights. 44. Heated car seats. 45. Academy Award nominations are released. Three months to go! 46. Hiding in turtle neck sweaters. 47. Curling up with a good, thick book. 48. Visiting grandparents and hearing their Christmas memories from decades ago. 49. Presents. Obviously. 50. A new coat. 51. TV Christmas specials that you have to stay in for. 52. Making snow angels. 53. Egg nog. 54. Those weird sunny moments when it’s still freezing cold. 55. Classic scary movies on TV for Halloween. 56. Snow days. 57. Lame jokes from Christmas crackers. 58. Waking up really early when the rest of the world is asleep and everything is calm. 59. The cold, crisp air. 60. Mittens. 61. Witnessing slip and falls. 62. Pumpkin spiced everythinggggggg. 63. Holding hands inside your partner’s roomy coat pocket. 64. Winter cocktails. 65. Letting go of the past because a new year is on its way and holding on to that stuff is, well, so last year. Over it. 66. Those chunky wrap-it-around-three-times scarves. 67. Sale shopping. 68. Christmas dinner with the family. Turkey and sprouts and potatoes and mmmm yeah. 69. Copious amounts of alcohol. 70. Dogs in sweaters. 71. Sunlight reflecting off the snow. 72. Time off work/school/anything not fun related. 73. Christmassy things, especially minature ones. Snowglobes, pine cones, ornaments, baubles, trinkets, etc. 74. Fondue. 75. The foam on your latte. 76. Fairy lights, everywhere and anywhere. 77. Chocolate selection boxes. 78. Layers. 79. Knitted hats, particulary from grandma. 80. Catching snowflakes on your tongue. 81. Board games. 82. Cinnamon rolls. Cinnamon tea. Cinnamon biscuits. Cinnamon anything actually. 83. Decorating the Christmas tree. 84. Getting out old family photo albums and having a good laugh. 85. Candles. 86. Sparkly New Year’s Eve dresses. 87. Sledding. 88. Getting the chance to tear through an old TV box set. 89. A steaming cup of hot tea between your hands. 90. The buzz in New York City. 91. Driving through the streets to admire the holiday lights on people’s houses. 92. Ice skating. 93. Doing art-and-crafty things like scrapbooking or making your own Christmas cards. 94. Toddlers in Halloween costumes. 95. Men with their bushy beards. 96. Gingerbread. 97. Sparklers. 98. Christmas wreaths. 99. Watching the snow fall from inside. 100. Coziness. Pure bliss.

Of course I’ll hurt you. Of course you’ll hurt me. Of course we will hurt each other. But this is the very condition of existence. To become spring, means accepting the risk of winter. To become presence, means accepting the risk of absence.

URGENT PSA:

I am living for the day when I find someone who will love me even when I am sad. Even when depression leaves scars on more than just my skin. Even when anxiety makes me ugly. Even when I don’t want to be loved. And I don’t buy into the bullshit that you can’t love someone until you love yourself first because my chest is burning with a passion for a familiar stranger that I haven’t yet met. And I have nothing but love to give to the person who sees something in me worth loving. Because a blind man still wants to know what the world looks like. Still wants to believe in what he cannot see. And I am living for the day when they find me. And they will tell me that they love me without exceptions and I will believe them. And I will believe that there is something in me worth loving. Even if I can’t see it.

pro-lifers: life is sooo beautiful!!! all life is precious:)