Shady's diary

It started because I realised that I might have to lower my head, sell my soul to the abuse, and go back to my parents

Things have been way too hard, and I have been pushing myself in any way I can, but I haven't got paid from my job in over a year, and recently they told me that I won't be getting paid until february at least

I did all I could

I tried so hard

I can't go back

But I want to live, and I can't live like this

But I can't live there either

There's no way out, no options left

Not even death is an option

All I can do is take it. Suffer the pain. Sit there and dissociate until I burn away the valuable little time I have left