I Dont Know Where im at but ill Get There One Day!

Life Gets Better Keep Your Chin Up.

Sometimes we all end up in a dark place to ashamed to show your face. how could you have let everything become like this. I Have Failed I’m Sorry !

Constant anxiety and mini panick attacks because I havnt slept when they are the reason I can’t sleep in the first place :/

I Can’t Believe I let you control my life abandoned everyone I ever loved or that loved me for someone who was looking for temporary comfort!

Life Gets Better Never Give up keep your head up your amazing no matter what they say!

Just watched a movie From 1943 Called The Crystal Ball was really good!

I Wanna Feel Alive Again Somehow.....

I feel So Emotionless I Cant Even Cry anymore just sit here monotone!

I feel so alone

Today you called me and you didn’t sound the same your voice is different your tone everything as much as. I miss you I’m not sure if your still broken or healing eather way I’ll always love you and hope you do well and talk care I’m sorry I couldn’t be the one because I tried so hard just to be with everything inside of me I swear almost 7 years 2 kids all our adventures the laughs the smiles the good times but I also can’t forget about the bad times the cheating the lies the deception everything we built as a family burned to the ground around me as I tried to save it and at the end of the line I saw you with the match I’m not sure what made you want to break me down to this person that I have become but the last few time I’ve seen you you wish me well and sceme like you miss me and I really honestly miss you to that’s why I write these things even though I know you will never get to read it I still feel a lot better writing it down expressing myself so I can heal I hope at the end of the day you just remember everything I did for you the hospital trips the days I would stay home from work to take care of you and the baby or baby’s sleepless nights calming your anxiety holding your hair every time you were sick the massages the cuddles just the love I tried to give to you I hope you learned that there are people out there who still truly can love at the moment I feel like we still belong to each other in a way and I’m honestly afraid that it will never go away maybe I just need more time to heal who knows but just remember I will always remember the good that you had done for me dealing with my anxiety cooking for me taking care of me when I was to down and depressed on certain days sometimes you would help sometimes you would make it worse depending what kind of mood you were in anyway I think I’m done with this rant and going to go to bed hope you are out there sleeping well rest you head beautiful and stay nice and comfy wherever you are I will always remember forever and always me and you against the world - A Man Who Misses Being A True Family Man!