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i would genuinely kill. a person to see what kind of art etho has saved in the fanart folder he mentioned just 10 minutes of browsing please i want to analyze his brain what kind of fanart would he want to look back at later? these are questions that constantly plague my mind
FIRST OF ALL THE TITLE IS JUST 💥 AGHUEAHGU!?!? I just listened to Rose by the Oh Hellos for the first time??? HELLO??!?! HULLO!?!?!? “Wars are raising for her crusades to adore her” im on my KNEES.
But god im just… thinking…
You once said to me and I quote “he doesn't cry anymore :( poor sweet baby etho's soft heart is gone :(( I can't believe I introduced soft sweet baby etho just to fuck him up, I think i have to write some kidfic fluff or something to repent and recover” AND I STILL THINK ABOUT THIS ALL THE TIME >:((( SOFT SWEET BABY CRYBABY ETHO?!?! A CHARECTARIZATION IVE NEVER SEEN BEFORE AND HERE WE ARE AND YOU’VE TAKEN HIM AWAY FROM ME BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY YOU’VE TAKEN HIM AWAY FROM BDUBS!! FROM BDUBS!!!
Stop it. Etho grew up. HE GREW UP. And Bdubs didn’t grow up, he might not be READY to grow up and Etho may look the same but he had 100 years of growing up and 🧨 🔥 I genuinely think next chapter Etho is going to explodificate. He was too calm. It was like he was repressing himself?!?! Like he was very… controlled. Kind of cold??!? And really holding himself back. You KNOW that every cell in his body is like *HUG HIM HUG THE LIVING DAYLIGHTS OUT OF HIM KISS HIM AND AND UWHUHGUAG* LIKE?!?!?! AND OMG. Can you imagine how much he’s idolized Bdubs over the past 100 years? Do you think maybe he’s a little bit in love with the image of bdubs he’s created!?!? no stop. NO STOPP. And Etho… he isnt who Bdubs fell in love with all those years ago. He’s different. Oh my god im going to cry.
I have so many thoughts about odd little habits Etho probably has. He is driven by so much fear, i think, when it comes to Bdubs. AND REMEMBER THAT IT WAS BDUBS. IT WAS BDUBS WHO WANTED IT SO HE COULD GROW OLD WITH ETHO. But largely, Etho has suffered the consequences. Oh good lord. I think Bdubs is going to get siiiick of Etho hovering over hiiiiim. I think Etho is going to be nagging him and and, waking him up ever half hour when he’s sleeping to make sure he’s still around, and and and Etho’s gonna be lying on top of him and blowing up at little things and I think Bdubs will have to realize that etho is SCARED and HURT and oh good lord.
Anyways as I was reading this i’ve been listening to Rose again and again and OH MY GOD IVE JUST GOT IT IVE GOTTEN ITTTT AHFUHUWFH?!! I GET IT NOWW (watch me proceed not to get it)!! “CRUSADES TO ADORE HER” ALL THE KNIGHTS COMING TO TRY AND “RESCUE” BDUBS? “Are you losing her true nature when you loosen nomenclature” oh my god WHAT A LINE!!! EVER DAY ETHO LETS HIS KNOWLEDGE OF BDUBS SLIP A LITTLE BIT AND MUDDLES THE REALITY WITH HIS IDEAS AND AFUHAWUFHAUWf “I THINK WE GOT A LOT WE GOTTA LEARN” JUST LIKE. THEY WERE LITTLE KIDS WHEN THEY MADE THIS DECISION AND NOW IF IT ISNT THE CONSEQUENCES OF THEIR ACTONS?!?! “Call her a briar long enough and you’ll tangle up the true and the fable” OK IM KINDA TWISTING THE WORDS A LITTLE BIT BUT LIKE ok first of all them being surrounded by briars HULLO!?!?? And also and more coherently, Etho has TOOOTALLLY BEEN TANGLING UP THE TRUTH AND THE FABLE HES CREATED A KIND OF DREAM OF BDUBS OVER ALL THESE YEARS AND I THINK RELEARNING THE REAL BDUBS AND SEPERATING HIM FROM THE SLEEPING STATUE IF YOU WILL IS GOING TO BE SUCH A THING FOR HIM?!?!?!? “What is safe isnt the same as what is good” and “Change comes so cheaply for those of us already at the table” UAUGHEAUGHUE ETHO HAS CHANGED ETHO IS CHANGED AND BDUBS ISNT AND Im literally going to cry.
On a lighter note… Etho purring… you really do believe in love… I have never written an Etho fic where Etho doesn’t purr, its just how its meant to be. Ohhhh… my heart.
I love this book, dude. You’re a master of what you do <33
asdjhfdsg thank you shade :')))) you're so sweet <3<3<3
we're definitely gonna get more about what etho's thinking, and how he coped while bdubs was asleep :) I wish I had a snippet to share abt that but alas, I haven't had a chance to write the scene I'm thinking of yet
I apologize for how slow the updates have been coming out btw y'all, there's a combination of factors that's making writing very difficult, and I'm being forced to put what energy I do have towards my creative writing class since that's graded :/ I am working slowly but surely on chapter 4, promise! thanks for your patience <3
you're giving me an excuse to talk about the title!!! I've been hoping someone would listen to the song! you're pretty spot on, but just for fun I'm gonna pull some of my line associations from the song :) this post might be so fucking long actually
beware! while I'm not going to talk about actual events that will happen in chapters 4 and 5, I will talk about some of my process for character development that has been/will be central to the trajectory of the story. so, like, if you want absolutely no spoilers maybe read this later
"Wars are raising for her, crusades to adore her" - so. of course this one is important because I uhhhhh named it that. this line is about the knights, but the reason it's the title is because it's about etho. the crusades in question are Etho killing the suitors in devotion to bdubs
"Are you losing her true nature when you loosen nomenclature, when you gift another moniker" - so many of these lines in this song are kind of dual wielded blades. at the same time as etho is obviously changed by a century of loneliness interrupted by murdering people, and has become--well, without going into too much detail the poor guy's pretty fucked up--bdubs has been changed too. he's a fairy tale instead of a person, he's a legend. he's this famous prince under a curse, but in a way he's become a cursed character in a story rather than a real person. and yes, like you said, absolutely there's some serious hero-worship devotion happening with etho, but also.... after so long, I think he would resent bdubs too (reread the first scene in chapter 2 for seeds of this)
"Call her Briar long enough and you'll tangle up the true and the fable" - I mean, obviously part of the reason I picked this song for the title is that it is sort of about sleeping beauty/briar rose lol, and it was just an amazing coincidence that it ended up working really well
"Love'll get you slaughtered like a ram at the alter" - poor etho, losing himself :( he doesn't cry anymore man! He's had to kill a soft part of himself I think in order to survive, and I think the question is now how much of the softness that bdubs loved remains? and etho's love for bdubs allowed him to be coerced into this arrangement which ended up destroying him
"What is safe ain't the same as what is good" - this line makes me think a bit about bdubs' and etho's fears and anxieties. the both of them are very afraid of the world right now in ways that sort of complement each other in a bad way. they are codepency final boss
"So lay compress to the aching of your body made for breaking, when we've got a lot of breaking left to do" - see above! they are... a long way from good, I think, even though they love each other so much, but that love IS hurting them and each other.
I don't know how much of this makes sense, and I hope I haven't said TOO much, but I really enjoy talking about my writing process, so I hope this was maybe a little interesting haha
I’ve read this like ten times over, OOOHOEH THANK YOU FOR THE IN DEPTH ANALYZATION WHAT?!?! THIS IS ALL IVE EVER WANTED?!?!?
Omg first of all nevvver apologize this is just a hobby and like you arent getting paid or anything so like T-T <333 DONT WORRY ABOUT IT DUDE YOUR POSTING SCHEDULE IS PERFECLTY FINE SO MUCH BETTER THAN ME WHO POSTS ONCE EVERY TWO YEARS.
OOOH BDUBS IS LITERALLY A FAIRY TALE. And Etho *knows* him and *knew* him and he’s PART OF THE TALE but he’s the VILLAIN??!?!? And like. Wow wow wow so much to unpack.
ETHO HOLDING RESENT AGAINST BDUBS. As much as im Not A Fan TM of this, im SUUUUCH A FAN OF THIS from a story perspective, because im SURE!!! Like i remembered, it was Bdubs idea to do the curse thing, and its like… Etho just spent ONE HUNDRED YEARS waiting. Some would say “wasted” but that might not be the word. But… the days are spent. They aren’t coming back, and he had no choice in the matter, really. I mean, he didn’t *have to stay* but yes he did. Yeahhhh he did. And I think it be scarier if he didn’t hold a little bit of that against him. Siiigh. I’d love to see that explored.
ALSO LIKE JUST CIRCLING BACK- Bdubs is mentally 16 (?) and Etho is… 118??? BUT THE THING IS he hasnt really left this castle, so he hasn’t matured either, really. He’s like, stunted. They both are, really, in different ways. And Etho killed so much and did so little, really, besides that and!??! No real thoughts here. But yeaaeeepp.
WOW ALSO HELLO??? THE RAM AT THE ALTER THING IS MAKING ME… FEEL KINDA A LITTLE BIT SICK. WOW. Etho losing himself for a cause that he got unwillingly put in. I mean… very willingly. But willingly as an in-love teenager. That barely counts. But like yeah, all that killing, all that hardening himself so he didnt… I mean imagine. He probably cried every day at first. And then he cried himself out. There was a day where he realized that if he spent every day for the next 100 years crying, he wouldn’t make it. So he stopped crying. If he missed Bdubs to tears every day, he’d die. He had to lose himself so that he could survive. But thats not who Bdubs fell in love with. Ouch ouch ouch.
They almost love each other in a bad way. Its almost a bit dangerous and a bit sick and more than a bit painful and definitely not good for each other, or not in every way. I mean its *good* but its just… SAURHUHRuer im going crazy. Everything you said makes so much sense i feel kind of crazy. Wow wow wow. Thanks for the indepth answer rosie you’re so cool!!!! I love seeing this part of the process!!!
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i realize now that you DO tag other ppls posts with bdublr so i am a fool
i tried watching sotf!! i honestly found the gun sounds really distracting, especially because they are louder than any individuals voice. rest in pieces, cant wait for sotf on hermitcraft with no guns!!
hmm do you know by any chance what bdubs back from minecon stream was? or like how i could find it perhaps?
Lmfao the gun sounds were SOOO LOOUUUD T-T sotf should come with a massive headphone warning lmao. But it was cute when etho made little surprised whiny noises when anything was too loud…. Sighs ddreamily….
OOH UMMM ok wait i actually might have the back from minecon stream on my blog somewhere because i feeeel like someone asked me this question before… let me get back to you on that. Its called like ‘stream from [date]’ and i forget the date LMAO.
3 seconds of looking on youtube later: here you go!! Im so good at what i do…. (Part one is cute too, but part two is when they really start talking about It)
i was thinking about how we can spread the bdublr gospel more-
do u tag others posts woth #bdublr? because if we notice that someone who loves bdubs or like truly *gets* him, we can tag it w bdublr and then they will be forced to see us in their notifs
If it moves like a bug, blinks like a freak, and sounds like an animal being trodden on, I tag it bdublr xDDD
THIS IS EVERYONE’S PSA, USE BDUBLR <333 also those of you who do i see everything you make and you’re my favs 🙂↕️
jakey on that scar stream straight up saying he never wants to meet etho because etho could never live up to his image of him. and it was a scar stream that etho showed up for later so there's like a 90% chance he was listening to that. :/
he did this AFTER he was on a call with Etho where etho was helping him with his gear troubles. and he repeated the thing etho said but made it sound way meaner by omitting the context and follow up.
What he basically said is “Hey, i know you by who you are when you’re playing a video game, but i think the real you with family and friends and a real life isn’t good enough to even COMPARE to this persona you’ve created” WHAT???? HUH???
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Siiigh… I could go on such a long rant about my thoughts on that guy but. I wont. Well maybe I will at some point but for now, I won’t, because its mostly gutted in feelings and emotions more than anything solid. So for now… absolutely fucked that he said all that about Etho?? Because it doesn’t take a genius to recognize that those are his biggest insecurities, not being enough, and not being who everyone perceived him as?? Does no one remember him going through the pyramid last season and saying how he felt like a background character in his own life and how he doesn’t understand why people put him in the forefront online?? My lord. Great job dude <- rolling my eyes
jakey on that scar stream straight up saying he never wants to meet etho because etho could never live up to his image of him. and it was a scar stream that etho showed up for later so there's like a 90% chance he was listening to that. :/
he did this AFTER he was on a call with Etho where etho was helping him with his gear troubles. and he repeated the thing etho said but made it sound way meaner by omitting the context and follow up.
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