hi!

looked through my old posts and damn i used to be so funny 😭

zyns are genuinly the best lax 😭

how to not become homicidal when i feel like anyone judges my realtionship with my favourite person tutorial

fighting two regenerating bosses (cleaning my room and trying to lose weight)

does walking in heels burn more calories bc it feels like it should

bought such cunty shoes but are they a bitch to walk in

ngl i forgot restricting again means i cant trust a fart

talked to my boyfriend and mentioned how im stressed and everytime it gets cold i get the urge to relapse and he responded "and how would that even help you?" which...fair but hey!

i was genuinly considering getting psychiatrist help again after few years but then my friend said that they think about getting off antidepressants bc they only made them gain shit ton of weight and they dont even feel that much better so now im discouraged again </3

also tmrw is my first day of my masters and im stressing so hard. weirdly enough recently stress makes me have no appetite at all when it usually turned my stomach into an endless pit so hey win is a win

i slept from 6 am to 5 pm yesterday and then went to sleep at 11 pm till 7 am and im still tired af

two unstable people had a child and now i binge and purge and google lowest calorie alcohol at any inconvenience

sorry for not posting, i turned for substance abuse as my go to coping mechanism recently but im still restricting!

despite all the breakdowns i had this week already i weirdly locked tf in with exercise and restriction