8 September 1989 - 20 April 2018

Life isn’t always pretty. Sometimes it hurts, it even breaks your heart. But that’s okay. The journey changes you; it should change you. It leaves marks on your memory, on your consciousness, on your heart, and on your body. You take something with you. Hopefully, you leave something good behind.

Every time I saw Avicii on the internet it still makes me sad. Whenever I hear his melodies it never sounded as before; like what I used to listen to it. It’s like a cry. It saddens me.

After I watched his documentary, it really hits me so hard. In the heart. He likes music; producing and making music in general. But he doesn’t want to be on stage. His body can’t. He has anxiety. Later on, he was suffering. All the things he sacrificed for the people- touring all over the world non-stop, making money for his management… but still, he’s the one paying for its consequences. He suffered health issues until his last breath and still seeking of true happiness he never had.

People might see him physicaly healthy now, but we are not aware he is very VERY weak on the inside. And now, he got tired of fighting. He is too good to live on this Earth. You are now free, Tim. You’re an angel!

It’s still hard to listen to your songs. But that was the legacy you left us; your memory in your music. We listen to your songs because of its catchy melodies but once you let your heart surrender with the flow of the music and eventually internalize every bit of the words its like a shout in my head saying “is there someone understands me?” Words that searching for help. But it’s all too late now. You already left.

I will always be your fan

PS: I am actually a rock music fan but Avicii was the very first EDM artists who open a new door for me to listen to other genre.

RIP TIM BERGLING

Pls do not read if you are triggered by suicide.

I’ve been listening to Avicii for so Long. I listen to his songs when I work out, in the car, otw home, jamming while doing work- so obviously his death came to a shock to me. Avicii aka Tim Bergling was only 4 years older than me- and he has accomplished so much in his short life. Too short, I thought.

A particular article mentioned that he cut himself with a broken (wine) bottle glass. And I immediately thought, “Wow that’s fucking rude.”

Whether or not this was true, I honestly believe this shouldn’t be leaked to the public.

I made these what if scenarios in my head which drove me crazy for days. I had so many questions.

Was he alone when he did it?

Oman was too far away from his home in Sweden. Why there?

What was his day like before he died?

How much had he been drinking before he knew it was time?

Did he wake up that morning and decided that it was enough?

Did it hurt at the first try? Or the second, or the third?

What was running through his beautiful mind?

Did someone push him slightly off the edge, this time round?

Did someone noticed something off and could there be a possibility to stop it?

How was he found?

What was it like in those final hours?

..so on and so forth. (And a thousand more questions)

Could you imagine how his family felt?

How it feels now