what does it mean to be loved by death?

dropped max off at the airport for his three week long trip to the literal other side of the planet, got back in my car, sobbed, drove to costco, spent quite a lot of money on grief treats, sobbed intermittently along to a podcast all the way home. and now i have to sleep alone for 26 nights. misery. i genuinely dont understand how you people do it. but i am like ortus nigenad one of the emperors natural mourners so i will make the most of my despair and hopefully turn it into some gnarly fanfiction

they dont know that using plastic tapes on page and binding repairs actually puts more stress on the book and leads to more damage... luckily there are paper tapes for binding repair and wax paper+glue fixes for pages and plastic tapes are often cleanly removeable from heavier stock paper if you go slowly, because its the force of the removal that rips paper, not the adhesive itself. whos they? the overworked circ professional reading this...