what does it mean to be loved by death?

ok rebranding. just the icon for now but idk if i dont see it fitting with everything else i might change that too. sorely overdue tbh i knew hudson was never going to be for a long time and i should have done it when the psychic link severed months ago, out of respect. le sigh... the search for an identity continues

really love how eleanor reacts to scott reminding her he is guthrie property + how it shapes her actions around the enslaved people from the andromache in 1.07... the ghost of madi once again... who she believes was born into slavery and died enslaved! she physically turns away from him because the guilt is so much. and still what she does for these people -- buying out their contracts and finding them jobs on a ship and with her -- does not give them any degree of agency or free will in the world. perfect read on the kind of white guilt and residual sense of ownership she feels. even ownership over the grief of madi, which festers for her but which she never asks scott about or tries to understand.... she is so so so rotted and will remain that way as long as it is advantageous to her

the other thing i really love about that mattben interview is how, in the decades since, their origin story has been totally collapsed with the plot of good will hunting, when in reality it couldnt be more different. like it is in no way an autobiographical story but i think that often gets lost ... cambridge instead of southie, encouraging academic parents instead of orphans. but so much of the emotional meat is the same. they had a great instinct for tragic circumstances to heighten stakes. and like in a real way it IS their narrative, or at least it is in the public eye, which is so important for my purposes. yay

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