|•No juegues con mi paciencia•|

Meme I SEND ME “CAN’T SLEEP?” TO HAVE A TIRED CONVERSATION WITH MY MUSE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT.

The tired blue eyes of the CEO looked with some patience at the other. Oh well, he can't sleep either. Even with a cigarette in his mouth and with hands in his pockets, Seto drew a soft smile on his face as he exhaled the last pull of nicotone.

“You’re nothing like him.” Joey turned around and buried his face against Kaiba’s shoulder, wrapping his arms around him in return.

“I know what a heartless murderer looks like. And you’re not one of them. You’re cold because you have to be, if you’d really wanted to hurt me then you already would have. I see how he take you are with mokuba, a heartless person like my father would have never done half the things you have to keep him safe and healthy. If anything I’d say you were more like me. You had to grow up too fast and you’re still trying to.digute things out. You aren’t a monster or a murderer, you’re just a confused person who needs a little more time to sort out your path.”

Pulling back a little, he smiled softly up at Kaiba, one hand moving up to cup the CEO’s face gently, his thumb stroking his cheek.

“You don’t have to put that wall back up just because ya made a mistake. You’re human, mistakes are part of figuring it who ya are and what ya want. But the best part about ‘em is that you can figure them out together, if ya find the right person.”

Seto narrowed his eyes at Joey's touch, holding back tears as he cleared his throat. until he finally swallowed them. “ I don't know what to tell you more. I ... sorry I'm a jerk”. Seto finished his last word and took Joey's face and planted a sweet shy kiss.  It didn't last long, just touching his lips and he drew back. He had no idea how to proceed. The 'cold' mask that he always wore had not only fallen off, but it also seemed that it had been dislodged by the other's kindness.

“It is true. I had always seen you below my shoulder, yes, I admit it but it was more than anything because, damm ..”. He shook his head, denying himself  and looked at him smilling. “... I was jealous of your freedom, of your friends and of the relentless tenacity to surpass yourself, although fortune was not on your side, you always looked at yourself so determined and ardent .. That bothered me. It made my blood boil although, on the other hand, it also made me look at you and make me feel 'weak'. I think more than once I was curious about you but, .. You know? it's not my thing to do something like that.

Seto raised a hand to hold the Joey and gently lower him  with a relaxed and warm face.

Joey flinched at the other’s words, pressing himself further into the corner and curling in on himself slightly. Every time someone raised their voice, it only reminded him of one person in particular.

“That’s because you don’t know me. You’ve only ever seen me as a dumbass and a challenge. I’ve been forced into sexual relations by my father to repay the debts that he owed other people my entire life ever since I was nine, you are the first partner I’ve had that hasn’t forced me into it. I may not act like it, but all I’ve ever know my entire life was the fact that all my relationships will only ever be forced and painful. I’ve never had anyone besides Yugi and my other friends who actually gave a shit about me. So yeah maybe to some people I seem normal but I’m not.”

He felt ashamed of it all and in all honesty Joey hated himself for it. True he put on a brave face every day and after like he was carefree but in fact he was the exact opposite.

“I act the way I do because it’s the only way I know how to protect myself. And I understand if you don’t wanna be near me now that you know just how defiled I really am. I’m always expecting to be hurt, doesn’t matter by who. All I’ve ever known in my life is abuse, the only reason I was able to hold my ground against you was because ya didn’t seem like the type ta do something like that…Cause of your brother.”

Seto was immediately silent. A repulsive look turned to him but because of himself and he looked away from him. Yes he had screwed up.

“I'm sorry. I’m so sorry. I shouldn't have been an idiot. I'm very sorry for your past and everything you've had to endure. you're right I don't even know you ...”. Seto returned his hand only to return to him, covering him with his arms and whispered. —”...  I know I have no idea what it feels like to be forced to be totally invaded by a stranger. But I know what it's like to be forced to be strong when you're really breaking down inside, I know that very well. But I am not a fortune teller to know who really wears a mask or with whom I should show my true self”.  He got a little closer to hide his face between his golden locks and breathed softly, as if it was the last time he would ever have him so close .

“That’s not what I meant, ya know….I’m just sayin that if ya wanna continue this, maybe we need to pick a different spot where someone isn’t gonna walk in on us.” The blond grumbled, though he gave a low sigh and simply resigned himself to the nearest corner, pressing his head into it with his back turned to the ceo. He knew that they bg to get through to Kaiba was going to be a losing battle so he figured it best not to try.

“Funny…I never expected you to be the first guy I was with to give me a choice…”

The words were mumbled softly, though just loud enough for the other to hear, the blonds hands jammed into his pockets as he kept his gaze low, not really knowing what else to do.

He was so used to being forced to give in, so having a choice now truly confused him, making him feel relatively insecure.

Seto turned around immediately upon hearing the whispers, with an obvious annoyed face.

   “But what are you saying?! You are a normal boy who goes around through life like nothing. You are disgustingly good, with 'attractive' features, what are you telling me???”. The fury began to dissipate the heat from his head, returning his already melted body to him, pressing his forefinger hard on the other's chest. Seto was offended. How was he the first? Did he think he would believe something like that? It could be true but his arrogance or perhaps his skepticism was dominating him. Who in his right mind would choose an expressionless guy, tied to the work of a company and the constant pressure to be as perfect as possible like him?.

“Your time will come and you will not know it. Only I know that…sure you can add a little bit to it, but fate wise you cannot control it.” That was the fact, it was hard to control something like destiny. And Death was not really controlable, sure he could fling himself off the palace and she would come as well, but is natural death or the death he needed to have. That was something only she could control or had control over.

Moony only nodded. “There will always be something that wants you dead or anyone else. Me for example, but I don’t want that. I am only the middle man.”

   “I know. The holy scriptures say it very well ...”.  Seth looked at her for a moment and shifted his gaze to the night sky, walking a bit towards the garden fountain. Death had always been a weakness for him, but not the kind of weakness that everyone fears, no, a weakness in how interested he was. Well now, he knew the basics at least, a great devotee of anubis meeting death in person, what better luck could he have.

A slight glance back to the blue eyed man, and a sip of his drink. A slight blush to his cheeks, but no where near the level of earlier. Seto could try, but HE was going to win

“Thank you by the way for being a comfortable throne for your king.” He teased. Hell he even wiggled his hips a little to get even more comfortable.

“You’re so good to me~” He gave Seto a wink and continued to drink his frappe.

A slight face of dissatisfaction showed on him. ah already so fast the adrenaline in yugi had passed? Seto intercepted Yugi's gaze but continued drinking his coffee quietly, although he was about to spit it out when he felt the slight 'dance' of the other's hips. Causing him to squeeze his toes hard to endure that seductive slip.

“Sure, whatever.” Cold words came out for an instant, like he was in 'normal' mode but it was false. He couldn't quietly enjoy that coffee, not with a midget pressing against his pelvis.