Damn it--Damn it! He could feel the situation slipping away, any advantage he had crumbling.  With teeth grit and all remaining âpon the Keeperâs down-turned face was frustration, with shoulders rising and setting with raged tenseness, the grip he held âpon the other tightening to painful level. Nails kept roughly trimmed short dug into the redheadâs wrist--no; no!
  The worst part about lying? The real reason the Keeper hated such an act? He wasnât any good at it. Little white lies (Iâm fine! Itâs okay.), small excuses as to why he knew both so much and so little--those were easy. He could put on a false smile and cheer for others with such noble ease. But the bigger lies? The ones that mattered? He couldnât find the words. His mind was trained for academic success, for the truths of words on pages. Trained to one day take pupils under his own wing and mentor them as heâd been mentored.
  The ability to lie and deceive so thoroughly and well. A charm and a smile and some flimsy excuse and he was gone with no one to suspect much at all. Even when the facade slipped so few of them caught on (was it shared demons in the past? could they truly not see through the cracks of the mask theyâd been shown?). How could he, too, figure out how to manipulate people to the degree he needed?
    â --Thatâs not what I meant. âÂ
  Though Zelos was sickening. Being around the Chosen brought naught but unease to the Keeper. An unsettling feeling in his stomach akin to what his own lies and deception brought. But not because the redhead was a liar, a traitor--those were in his character description. To play his part, no matter what it was, was all the Keeper could ask for. Want. Heâd not fault nor judge anyone on how they acted or were, so long as they faithfully played their part.
  But Zelos didnât want to play his part. Not the way that would ensure the continuity of this record. And thatâs what was sickening. Reviling. Disgusting.
  The Keeperâs earlier words of disgust, however, were about himself. Lying, deceiving, all the things he did--he disgusted himself almost as much as those characters that refused to play their parts did.
  Easier--? He certainly wanted it easier. A guide to this sort of thing. Someone that could walk him through the harder parts. Someone--
  A hand âpon his hat, and the frustration and tenseness of the youth eases just a bit. Itâs always been a comforting action before, whenever someone pat his head or tapped his hat--but thereâs something else distracting him. A stray thought, perhaps, as dim blue gaze flit to the side, to the wrist he held and the dagger as stray threat. That wasnât the type of easier he wanted. Rather--that sort of âeasyâ would cause only problems. An unfinished job. A record thatâs been ruined. A life and purpose that he still yet wanted to experience, to see unfold. So many friends to meet and reunite with and records yet to experience (as awful as it could be)--
  His grip âpon the other had faded, fingers sliding down fabric, the Keeper taking a half-step back. There was no reason to be so close. Still his eyes lingered down--heâd still need to keep a hand there, âpon that wrist, that dagger. There was only one place this conversation absolutely could not go--yet so soft and light the new hold it, there might as well not have been one. But were that dagger to move--
  Thereâs not much of an expression on the Keeperâs face when he finally looks back up. Empty--he can think of no way to ply himself, his emotions to his benefit any longer. The same expression he wore when puzzling out a new magic, of learning of something completely foreign--blank. Eyes unblinking, unwavering, watching with no hint of a person behind them even as they lingered âpon lips upturned. Pain--
    â It wouldnât be easier. Not for both of us. Only one
     of us gets to win, Zelos. To have our way. Thereâs
     a lot riding on this. Worlds. I canât let you win. The
     darkness, win. â
  A twitch at the corner of his mouth, before mirroring the Chosenâs expression. The grip âpon wrist is shifted, tightened.Â
    â Sorry. Iâm gonna make sure it keeps being hard.
     âCause youâve got an important part to play. And
     Iâm gonna do everything I can do to make you play
     it. Iâm not gonna let you die. Not âtil itâs over. â