serena

you know, how hardcore i was being your fan. i saw you that day being announced as someone who defeated famous artists at the billboard awards back in 2017, i thought “that can’t be, impossible really.” then i transferred schools, high school happened. everyone i befriended with loves u all, i remember saying i hate the likes of you. and then out of the blue, randomly thought “maybe i should give it a try” i wanted to surprise them that i knew your songs. my first clip of you was the blood, sweat and tears practice video and i remember mistaking jimin as jungkook. that was august of 2017. that night, i watched countless videos of yours. i was put in a place of safety, belonging and comfort. you’ve become my safe haven. everyone hates your success but look how far you’ve come. thinking back, so much memories, merchandise i had in those peak years of my teens. i’ve met wonderful people, friends that i have ‘till now. oh, how much i loved those years. but then my busy schedule got me and sadly, day by day, i don’t have time for you anymore. i don’t know how it happened but i was focused on my studies and the growing responsibilities i have after i turned 18, confusing career paths that i needed to decide—few of my friends have left while i watched my surroundings become more open to all of you. i was there, i remember it all too well how much loved you are by your fans and your countless awards that y’all deserve. it was like watching your favorite show being accepted by society. fast forward, life happened and im 19 now. it was an adventure i will cherish forever.

heyyaaa ! i discovered a new kpop girl group and i wanted to share it with y’all bcs their songs are too good to gatekeep it. please give it a listen 🫶🏻

if u want an anime-like rock song try this 👇🏻

give this a listen if u want some romance anime feels 👇🏻

to that guy, i liked you so much i never thought i can feel that way for a person. you were my first love even if it's unrequited—i hated you, i hate how you always tease me. i don't know how it came to this—me liking you that started with hate. i was so jealous of my bestfriend, that you became a couple and how you express those lovely things for her that i can only wish for me. that time was so difficult for me because i can't express my feelings and it hurts so much suppressing it. you were my first love and my first heartbreak. you taught me what it feels like to like someone. i had dreamt of you for years even if we already separated ways. that's how hard for me to move on from you. you're such a bittersweet memory that i can't help to remember. this will be the last time that i'll remember those feelings again, i want to fully let you go. that concert will be the closure of my feelings, and i hope someday—the first unrequited love of mine would be reciprocated by someone.

this is the song btw:)