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Fahriye Evcen as Selvi Nardan in Ă–lene Kadar
Fahriye Evcen for Koton (2017).
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coldxsilver‌:
He said nothing, he wouldn’t take her answer at face value. He knew where he sat and where she lay, he knew what the outcome should have been and he knew in his deepest parts of what passed for his heart, he had grown to care for Sera. He cared for her. She was beautiful, powerful and intelligent. She also would never be his nor would he ever pursue that train of thought, she was someone Zephyr had ordered him a long time ago to protect her, over that time he had grown to care for her and that had been both helpful and a mistake. Allowing himself to care for another made him weak, he knew he was weak right now. He was resting on his arms still, not looking up at her as she spoke, telling him that he’d have died. He sort of smirked a little before he glanced up finally to meet her eyes, “I will politely disagree.”Â
Moving to lean forward, his fingers reached out to squeeze her hand lying on the hospital bed, giving it a brief grip before he pulled out, “I do owe you in an apology in that you and Zephyr have done so much for me, had I been armed or better at handling someone in a fight, you would not be there and I would not have this…” He said casually waving his hand at his cast. He sat up a bit straighter now, leaning back in his chair, “I am glad you are okay, as well as can be expected.” If he had died, which was definitely not his plan ever, he would have at least not felt something real like this for the first time in years. He acquiesced to her point in the end though, nodding to her, “You are correct in that we are not ghosts. Though we were attacked and it was calculated. We are exposed and I can’t help but think it ties back to the leak we discussed previously, but that is a discussion for once you are actually well and not sitting here being incorrect on how I didn’t fail, I rarely admit to failure so when I say I failed you, know I mean it and I will correct it in some fashion.”Â
"Agree to disagree then.” Their palms intertwine for a moment and she returns the squeeze of her own fingers before he’s pulling away once more, retreating into himself as she is so accustomed to when it comes to Theo Dolion. It became the nature of those within the Kovali, to lend affection only under particular circumstances. "What would you like from me, Theo? Forgiveness? I can give that to you.” Even if she felt it was unnecessary to request in the first place, Sera held absolutely none of her situation against him. A burden he hardly should have been forced to carry, though he seemed intent upon shouldering it despite her protests.Â
“How about you make it up to me by spilling every theory you have on what happened.” Discussing strategy and the intricacies of such a display would undoubtedly ease both of their minds rather than continue tossing back and forth the gravity of her situation. “Someone already told me about the body doubles. That’s quite advanced, even for the Faction. To strike very specifically like that; they chose their targets well.” Luna and Sera had been a warning to Rafal and Zephyr, that was undoubtedly clear. “What I don’t understand is the why. The mayor and police chief know that everything can only be done through legal channels, yet those ghouls claimed them all the same. Were they part of this demonstration or unwitting accomplices?”

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Expectation has always painted itself somewhat a fallacy, a twisted and flawed counter to explain away the implorable feeling he’d once been told felt like the idea of being gutted could bring to mind. He doesn’t expect things from anyone. Respect, Love, Forgiveness – all tainted far too readily by the ever-shifting tides of commonality. Nothing was permanent, and even less so was ever guaranteed and it concreted itself against his spine long before Zephyr had ever understood that he’d have to take everything he wanted before he could expect anyone to hand it over to him. “I’m not tryin’ to.” A great many things find themselves upon the list of things he has taken, the lengthy stretch of everything that Sera had been through, everything they had been through, and the act of his own hand tainting it in whatever capacity he had are far too prominent for the woman sitting beside him, and himself, for him to consider belittling her so much that he’d wish to take it back. Silence has never been deafening. He’s always been much more partial to it than most, never shifting in discomfort beneath the posed weight of it as so many did and now with the pivotal increment of their strain dealt to him in a hand that he damn well knew would find it’s way to the surface eventually, he can’t do anything more than linger in it a little while longer. “Would you rather have known about it?” Of course, he didn’t doubt the answer she’d give, but he wasn’t finished yet. Since the moment she’d found him in their office and confronted him with the secret he kept, he’d allowed her every moment possible to say what she needed, but that time was gone. “Known about her bein’ alive and havin’ absolutely no hope of doin’ anythin’ to change where she is? Maybe I don’t know you as well as I thought I did if that’s the case.” Even now, there posed a difficulty that Zephyr had to calculate far beyond bartering for the Karan sister’s release and if it were even possible. The already shifting tiles of their hierarchy biting at his ankles and shifting the once concrete pilar he stood on. “You’ve seen her,” he wonders if she saw what he did. “She doesn’t want to fight, not like you did.” Not like a woman that wants out, “She’s too compliant,” Sneaky, perhaps, but it was a different fire than the one he needed to ensure all of their stability. Instead, she honed quiet anger, which decidedly was exactly what the Kovali wanted — it wasn’t what was necessary if he.. – no, they, were to try and pull her out. “If I gave her the same option I gave you, she wouldn’t survive it, Sera.. and I can’t back someone I don’t believe in.”
The stretch of road before the pair is consumed in darkness, save the occasional street light which guides them back towards the city’s heart. It’s within this inky void that memories bubble to the surface, coming in flashes and flickers as they turn yet another corner. Summertime, the warehouse traps heat like a blanket even after the sun has disappeared, too uncomfortable for blankets yet without one she feels exposed to the masses. A self-made shiv from Azra’s old toothbrush pressed against the curvature of her palm as she wields it quietly beneath the beaten fabric of her pillow, simply awaiting the necessary moment of use. That period remains murky at best in her memory, the actual attack, but even now Sera recalls the ironclad grasp upon her arm and an intense desire for retaliation. Desperate to feel something other than helpless in her own fate. The next moment she sits before a blond man in a smaller room, placed into a metal chair with bruising force by those who do not concern themselves over whether she lives or dies... Unfamiliarity and distrust linger in the air between them, her darkened gaze awaiting him to brandish a gun, a knife, perhaps even his fist. He certainly wouldn’t be the first. Barely eighteen years of age and already the victim of far too much violence; or perhaps the survivor. Incandescent lighting is dim, casting a near sickened glow to the room, but despite it she can almost ascertain his features and he doesn’t appear angry. Quite the opposite, intrigued or even the slightest fragment of impressed. Surely this exists within her imagination, there must be a catch, another shoe prepared to drop and remove her from this world permanently. Instead he lays his palm flat upon the table facing upwards, a coy invitation for her to brandish the weapon and place it into his grasp, knowing full well the sort of unpolished ferocity she wrought upon one of his own men. Sera hesitates, clasping her only lifeline a fraction tighter before fingers move of their own accord and, without breaking his gaze, she places it gingerly into his waiting hand. They haven’t said a word to one another, but this conversation speaks volumes.
Sera hasn’t realized she pulled off the road until he finishes speaking, gaze still trained on the windshield whilst the memory of that night replays over and over within her mind. How intent she became on fighting no matter the cost, even if it resulted in losing her own life. “No, that would have killed me.” She supposes for that reason, blame cannot be assigned to him. “I was so angry with you for keeping this a secret, but... You were protecting me. Like always.” From herself, from her inevitable implosion under the circumstance of never being able to rescue Azra and bring her into the fold. None of them would consider the capo a serious contender within the Kovali, none of them would view her beyond the shackles of trauma which might still weigh her down if she had known. The guilt would have consumed her whole and dampened any potential Zephyr saw that night. Yet now Sera existed between a rock and a hard place: knowledge of her sister’s circumstance and powerless to assist in rescuing her from the depths of hell. She wondered aloud what made them so damn different, “Why did you believe in me?”
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He didn’t move, for the longest moment, seeing her there and knowing in his heart he had broken the only promise that he had ever made, the promise to protect what mattered to Zephyr. Something had broken inside of Theo. He just gave her a sort of sad half-smile as she spoke to him, her words like gentle knife wounds to his ego. She still somehow looked beautiful even lying near death in a hospital bed, she was an impressive woman and Theo was glad to know her. He nodded in her direction, shrugging just slightly, all normal bravado gone. This is why he had always told himself that he couldn’t feel, couldn’t love, this was his greatest fear brought to life. Caring for another and knowing they could be taken from him. Nearly losing her had sparked a break in him, all he could see was his mother lying in a pool of her own blood, the last time he’d failed someone he cared about in life.Â
“I…I am not sure that I deserve to step inside. But, for you my dear, most anything.” He said with a small nod of his head as he came in, side eying the nurse in a way that said she was free to leave. Theodore was dressed, of course, to the nines. A full suit head to toe, suit jacket hung over his arm that he now draped over the back of one of the chairs. His silver shirt clung by a black vest and matching pants. He moved to sit in the chair and just leaned forward to look at her, “My dear, I am sorry.” He said softly, a small wetness forming in his eyes at her looked at her, “I failed you.” He wasn’t full on crying at this point, but his heart had sank, allowing himself any sort of visible weakness was unlike Theo. He hated himself for it. He hated everything and hated that now he knew deep down, someone could get to him through Zephyr and Sera. He hated that knowledge and made a mental note that perhaps it was time to shut down once more, to pull away and make sure no one got close. That no one knew him once more, a tear in his facade meant a weak spot others could exploit and some unknown assailant had done it without evening trying,Â
Theo wanted to kill them. He wanted to find who had hurt Sera, drug them and watch them squirm as he cut their fucking flesh. He was emotional and for Theo, that was not something he had ever wanted in his life. Yet there it was, the same rage and sadness he had felt the day someone killed his mother. He had managed to kill the man who did that and that was before his current resources. He could find those who had hurt Sera and he could watch them burn. He needed it like he needed her to be okay.Â
This had never been the sort of attention she valued, the one which instilled pity and concern in the eyes of those whom she only ever wished to see valiant. Yet once a person became admitted to the hospital, it seemed such expressions were impossible to avoid. Though how Theo managed to enter without Zephyr’s hovering figure to prevent him amazed her quite a bit, after all the man rarely left her side throughout this extended stay. Not to mention his complete fury as she regaled memories of the night in question, shifting some of the blame to the consigliere despite Sera’s disagreement. Nothing more was said until the nurse vacated the room and allowed a lingering silence to befall two friends, one of whom seemed to carry more guilt upon his conscience than necessary. “Please don’t apologize.”
As is her nature, she wishes only to assuage any sensation of burden which weighs upon his shoulders, for it is unnecessary and quite truthfully breaking her heart to witness. The emotion welling up within his hues sparks her own throat to tighten. “You did not fail me, Theo.” Confirmation that she would never hold his actions, or lack thereof, against him–– not now, not ever. “Do you know something? I would rather you sit here with a broken hand than have to bury you. Because that’s what it would have come down to: a hole in your head.” Sera would volunteer her own fate over his any day of the week, content in the prospect of a final rest for herself than any of those whom she cared so much about. “But we’re not ghosts and the doctors said I can be released tomorrow. All is as it should be.”
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Drunk could only last as long as his adrenaline would allow. Drunk stopped the moment he’d been confronted with the image of Sera’s body dangling in plain view of the people scattered on the main deck. The fire of his anger and depth of his sorrow and disbelief burned through every ounce of alcohol he’d drank that night until all he could feel was the unwavering notion that this wasn’t right. And when Luna came- half naked and screaming that she needed help, that they needed help- he’d never run so quickly to anyone in his life. Terror at the idea that she was really dying and not her costume on some unrecognizable body consumed him until he was wrapping his jacket around her shoulders and begging her to wake up. “Come back Sera, come on. Come back.”
As her arms snaked around his shoulders he gripped her against him, trying to stave off the chill from the dead engine and the fear that this could have been the last time he’d seen her. He looked to the other’s, the ones she’d been trapped with for confirmation that they were, indeed, still alive. “Yes, yes they’re fine. They’re alive.” He didn’t know what had happened in that engine room but he would kill any one of them if they’d compromised her. “Are you okay? We need to get you to a hospital..” but he didn’t want to let her go. Selfish as it was. He’d never really been selfless anyway. “Can you walk?”
A chill bellows through the lower reaches of the deck, enough to remind Sera that she is exposed beneath the lapels of his jacket as fingertips tug it further atop the fabric of her undergarments. The reality of how near to death she’d come, how it almost claimed her in a similar fashion as twelve years prior on a warehouse floor... The capo does her best not to linger on such a thought because she’s in his arms and she’s okay; she’s holding onto something real and safety finds her for the first time tonight. “No hospitals,” but the protest is as weak as she feels, knowing full well that so much carbon dioxide in her blood stream would require medical intervention. “I don’t–– Maybe. I haven’t tried.”Â
Disorientation overtakes a cunning mind, fogging all avenues of thought as she refuses to relinquish the ironclad grasp upon him whilst unsteady legs attempt to balance her weight. They tremble both from lack of oxygen and the latent adrenaline still coursing through her veins, propelling her into him momentarily as she rests her forehead against his shoulder. “Don’t let me die here, Val.” One breath. Another. She will get her bearings and walk off this damn boat even if it wrecks the brunette completely. Pulling away yet remaining close, she attempts again to venture out of this nightmare.
Showered, free of the oxygen chamber, and finally assigned to her own hospital room, Sera might have considered herself lucky to enjoy the simplicity of this moment. But considering she was still entrapped within the walls of a hospital until official discharge, the brunette hardly found it acceptable. Loathing for this sort of institution had been ingrained within her for years. Doctors asked far too many questions, held prying eyes, made reports she could not control. Even now as a nurse placed an oxygen mask gently within her palms, distrust echoed across soft features until she spotted another figure lingering in the doorway behind the woman. The last she’d witnessed before being dragged away to her near death... "Hey, stranger. Are you planning to stand in the doorway all afternoon or use one of these perfectly good chairs?” @coldxsilver​

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"––I can feel you staring.” Lids are shut as her back faces the singular entrance to the hospital room, clearly ajar from the sliver of light piercing an opposing wall. She turns then, prepared to address one of her stoic bodyguards assigned by the Underboss himself only to discover another presence entirely who warms something familiar within her chest. “Hey, Vin.” Sitting up within the flimsy blanket draped over her torso, she gestured for him to enter the room fully and shifted along the uncomfortable mattress. “It’s late, what are you doing here?”  @prcspect​
For several moments within the confines of an engine room, Sera had genuinely believed that she might not ever be able to experience this again: crossing the Kovali compound threshold. Relegated to this place practically by order until she’s resumed standing steadily upon her own two feet, for once the decree hardly comes as a prison sentence. She discovers gratitude within these walls even more so for the man passing through the room now. “Emir––” What is there to say except to apologize for her own distance? "I just...” Words, Sera. Use your goddamn words. “You saved us.” The heart of it all in the end. “If it hadn’t been for you... I wouldn’t be able to say that, I wouldn’t be able to say anything. So I wanted to thank you.” @emirkovali​
The bag she packs from the hospital room to return home is only symbolic of all which could have been lost that night in the engine room. How close death had come to claiming her for a second time, ironic considering that a duplicate of herself apparently was witnessed hanging from the gallows in the same moment. Visitors filled her in on the dramatics missed in the capo’s absence, though it only served to add a particular layer of discontent atop everything. “I thought I’d never leave this place.” She speaks without turning to face him, already sensing his presence in the doorway. “I hate hospitals.” @zephyrjcksn​
In. Out. In. Out. The rhythmic ebb and flow of her own breath is Sera’s sole focus as the room fills with movement, familiar features of Emir and the others obscured through fluttering lids. Unconsciousness threatens to overtake in every moment, despite the sweeping flood of oxygen which enters the engine room through its now open door. Someone’s moving her then, carrying the brunette into the hallway where she can inhale deeper, gaze more concrete yet still unfocused as more figures come rushing forward to assist in the rescue.Â
Clarity comes in varying waves and her head rushes with the influx of breathable air, suddenly feeling as if she’d been underwater for so long and only now reached the surface. Someone is draping fabric over the exposed skin along her shoulders, unsteady fingers grasp upon the suit jacket before the profile of someone so near to her own nose becomes the only subject Sera can genuinely level upon. “––Val?” She surges forward to wrap arms around his shoulders as adrenaline spikes momentarily, realization over the nearness of their situation suddenly growing paramount. “Are they alive?”
The others. She needed to know.
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He chuckled a little, “You did fine, my love.” He walked around the room with a small movement, waving his hands in the fashion he always did when he was thinking to himself, “We start with the drugs. I’ll need a decent amount, enough for a felony with the understanding that we are going to lose them. Period.” He said as he pulled in a short breath, “That will be the easy part. The hard part will be the paper trail, we need to show that his hands have been dug into the various aspects of the business, well the fake business we are building here for him. We need things that can trace back to him. I can invite him over, getting his finger prints to put on things should be fairly easy.” He was just rambling now, thinking out loud to himself, he smiled over at Sera now, “You’re a beautiful woman with a beautiful mind. Were I a more uncouth man I may have long ago made a pass at you, people should respect your damn mind and if they don’t, I am sure you will remind them the weapon that you are, I am very pleased with how this day has gone.”Â
“I can secure us the drugs, that won’t be a problem. I just have to call in a couple of favors.” Her entire position within the Kovali rankings involved the smuggling and transport of narcotics, so acquiring them might be the simplest task yet. It would only require the barest amount of rerouting. “You might need to convince Zeph and Raf, though. I can’t imagine they would be keen to lose the money, but if it’s to protect Irena... They might be willing to budge on the matter.” The rest of his plan echoed with lack of fallacy and she rather admired the way in which his mind spun out with various possibilities, all of them airtight in a courtroom due to his surplus of knowledge. It’s the compliment which catches her up short, features blanking for a moment as she registers the genuine nature of its delivery. Few are ever so forward with her, so untethered to circumstance or position to voice their true inclinations. “Thank you. I’ll be sure to remind them should anyone ever dare to forget.”

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“As if that ain’t fuckin’ obvious.” One could claim that any man that stood so readily at the height Zephyr Jackson did within the expansive criminal totem pole within the city would be more than enough, however, his rampant will to continuously add rhyme to reason made it crystal clear that the underboss didn’t plan on waiting for death to knock at his door. He’d meet it face to face; mirror to the reaper. Though, he supposed there were far too few that had a handle on death as well as he, a controlled necessity that barely caused the man to blink. “If anythin’ were gonna’ take me out by now, it sure as shit woulda’ been your drivin’. But, since we’ve dodged that fuckin’ bullet for this long, figured it’s just an, “along for the ride,” kinda thing.” He noted roughly, the edge of his tone pitched to capture the curvature of a harrowed laugh, barely breaching the surface and instead reverberating against the thick of his chest as he slid into the passenger seat, the sharp thud of the door leaving him all the more aware that there still remained something far heavier than duty hanging limp from unanswered questions.
Reaching to curl digits around the handle above his window, Zephyr knows despite her return, that their time to cut back all of that which taints a long lasting relationship, is limited. He gave her space and she took it, but now, without her glaring daggers at his throat, she’s owed more than time. “I’m sorry you had to find out the way you did,” His voice is low, sturdy in that his conviction is real, that shame doesn’t exist within the apology he offers. It’s the truth, he is sorry she found out the way she did. Details of which still seek to leave his knuckles white. “I should have been the one to tell you she was still alive.”Â
In her own defense, Sera’s eighteen year old self had only ever known the Kovali power within the structured warehouse walls, she could never fathom how deeply or viciously it ran beyond that. Only what she knew, only the horrors and degradation exposed to someone so unbearably young. In the moment that she attacked the guard with a self-made shiv, be it out of self defense or a blatant insubordination to land herself upon the chopping block, the girl could not have known that the man they presented her to for execution nearly existed as a god amongst them. Now how he would eventually come to represent so much more than omnipotent to her in the years which followed; figures tangled in bed sheets, smiles in the darkness. "You only have yourself to blame.” Though whether she referred to his tutelage in regards to driving or the onset of their complex relationship, one could not discern.
It all feels tainted now, the multitude of conversations which held some semblance of vulnerability between them, the pedestal upon which she built their bond now wobbles with threat of toppling altogether. She can sense it bubbling to her lips, yet the words take pause before ejection and seconds later, Sera is so grateful for her own hesitation. Zephyr never does anything without calculated thought, even more so with words, and now he apologizes in a way that is so well-crafted she nearly has to pull the car over. She doesn’t, but the thought remains. "Yes, you should have. But we can’t take back the past.” Perhaps not the response desired, for it does not echo with forgiveness nor anger, just quiet repose. “Why didn’t you tell me yourself? Were you afraid that I couldn’t handle the truth?”
Location: Engine Room. Characters: Sera, Luna, Jasper, Roe, Lennox, unnamed ghoul. Premise: What went down in the Engine Room on the Charon. Tw:Â Mentions of suffocation, blood, weapons, general panic.
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