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basically, my car has been acting up for yeeeaaaars. but now there's a new thing breaking or malfunctioning every other week, i'm at 298k miles, it's TIME. that car is so stressful to drive because i'm always on edge about something else going wrong.

so i was looking at this one specific car. but it was a liiiiiittle out of what i was sure i'd be able to afford. and also it was just eternally not in stock because as the cheap car of the company, everyone was just buying that shit. so basically the only option was wait and hope one pops up and jump on that shit, or order it.

so last september my dad was all set to order it, and he decided that since i wasn't positive i'd be able to afford it, he would order the minimum of what he would want in that car, and then if i couldn't afford it, he'd take it instead.

so. what he ordered was $12k more than what i wanted and i was like welllllll definitely can't afford that now.

so. turned to used cars instead. most of what i've been finding is a similar price to the car i originally wanted to get. which.... nah. so i've been back and forth with my dad for the last week about what he's willing to give me for a down payment, because i make $14/hour yo, i don't have shit. at first he was offering me 12k and found me a car at the dealer he goes to. the car was $31k which is waaayyyyy out of the range of what i can afford, even with a 12k down payment. so i looked at the dealership where my brother is a mechanic and found a used car for like $23,200, talked to my dad, and he said he took back the 12k offer and said he'd give me 5k. which brings $23,200 out of my range.

so. i stressed and agonised and searched and talked to my dad again like "look, i'm not trying to buy a car that's going to have me constantly in danger of not making enough money to make my monthly payments, and i'm not looking to buy a car that's in barely better condition than my current one and is going to die in two years, and those are basically my options so idk"

so. he basically said "wellll would it help if i do $7k for a down payment instead?" so like. yes, obviously every little bit helps.

aaaaaaaaaaaand then i found it. the perfect car. it's a hybrid, about 7 years old, 81k miles on it, so it's been driven a decent amount and the previous owner wasn't letting it sit around a ton most likely. $14,200. with the 7k down payment, that was going to make my monthly payments about $180/month for five years. aaaaaaand. i did a lot of math and figured out that driving that car would cost me about $90/month in gas, whereas my current one is costing me $150/month. so. there we go. there's the majority of my monthly payment right there just in the difference in what i'm spending on gas.

sooooo today i did the thing and called the dealership and scheduled an appointment to test drive it (i am terrified of phone calls okay, major panic mode right there lmao), got my brother to go with me so he could do his mechanic thing and take a look at it aaaaaaaaaaaaand we got there and they were like "........oh, yeah, someone was supposed to call you, we were getting it ready to test drive and it put up a hybrid engine warning light, so we had to take it back to the shop to see what's going on, and if it's super expensive to fix, we have to just scrap it, but if you want i can keep you updated"

so. that's fun lmao. just my luck. i'm gonna hope it's something they'll fix because DAMN that is literally exactly what i need in a car right now.

Zhaan is just trying to die on me 24/7.

Aeryn was like "roots? nah let's rot them all off" so I did a big chop and prop and was SO WORRIED because all I've heard about propagating that specific plant is that they're so hard to root and... well, 9/9 cuttings were growing roots and new leaves within a few weeks and now I'm like wellllll these are gonna take over my entire house because they get BIG.

Crichton is a crawling plant who one day just decided he wanted to climb instead.

Talyn's trying to yeet himself out of existence by growing leaves that are getting progressively more and more white and BRO YOU NEED SOME GODDAMN GREEN IN YOUR LEAVES THOSE SOLID WHITE ONES ARE USELESS TO YOU.

STARSTRUCK seemed to be just an idea in fiction or an outdated notion of finding some one that fitted you so well. And yet that was the feeling he felt with the beauty and he had been eager to resolve any tension that existed there between the guarded pair. Denial seemed to only make the tension that more palpable. to deny himself and Aeryn the chance to know one way or the other they were indeed weak for one another. It was found they were far better together.

The man made a disapproving sound but he wasn’t really arguing. “ Logic, tactics, all the same thing when it comes to wooing my beloved Wonder Woman.” A cheeky explanation.

He paid homage there bis lips.in contact either her neck, digits lightly tugging on her beautiful hair. “ Oh you are going to stop thinking?” Lips smacking together, “ I like that.”

“WELL,  I THINK    we can both agree that it hardly matters whether it’s logic or tactics,  so long as we have a few moments undisturbed,”  Aeryn mused softly,  a playful smile settling on her lips.  Her arms circled his neck,  expression softening once more as she pulled him closer,  leaning lightly into him as she allowed her forehead to rest against his.  She had spent far too long pushing him away,  trying to distance herself.  That was the last things he wanted now.  Perhaps she would regret that decision later,  but for now -- at least for now,  she was certain it was the right decision,  or at the very least,  it was worth the risk.  He  was worth the risk. 

In total sync with one another had given perspective comfortable and uncomfortable perspective into one another. being a shoulder to cry on but also knowing when the other had a stupid plan/ heart pounding as you waited to see it through. Dethatched. He became dethatched on earth and focused on his job and then he saw Aeryn dethatched and alone/ Cast aside from, her own people and the only two humans on the crew it was natural but more than it was right. How to handle life and death situations without her he did not know. he had a purpose with everyone, and Aeryn included.

surprise. the man could surprise her with words and actions the same and it always felt right to wrap around one another. Their organic living ship might be growing but kit was still a tight space and they couldn’t help but run into one another. Moya and Pilot both could snoop but he was a good wingman and they were granted these moments for a reason. to restore and attain sanity together. they were heading towards another pleasing moment, so by God let them go uninterrupted. 

Laughing lowly the man nodded, “ you are always thinking so tactically Officer Sun.” He stared at a spot on her neck before he applied his mouth there, petting her pretty dark hair as the man squeezed her waist.

IT NEVER CEASED TO SURPRISE HER,    the warmth she felt in his presence.  There’s hadn’t been many people in Aeryn’s life she had allowed herself to open up to,  there hadn’t been many people she felt comfortable letting her guard down with.  That was still something she struggled with,  it was hardly something she could deny.  Some days it was easier than others.  With John,  most of the time it felt natural,  like it was the right thing to do. 

A quiet laugh rang from her lips,  an amused smile tugging at their corners.  “Oh,  I’m not sure I could consider that  tactical  thinking,”  she shot back in an amused tone.  “Logical,  perhaps.  Just a little...”