it's a mess y'all

i go to bed. i am consumed by overwhelming loneliness. i stare at the ceiling. i long for something i can’t name. i question if i’m real. i see a funny little meme on my phone and laugh hysterically for several minutes. i get too invested in an unrealistic fantasy. i pass out around three.

fuuuuck i just realized that the future idealized version of myself cant exist without current me being the catalyst for change and doing hard things. has anybody heard about this

any tips for developing discipline? ive been going through life on a lackadaisical hedonist build but ive got a bunch of mysterious problems that i may or may not be at fault for

they got married btw

Your life is about to take a beautiful turn.

ive invented (note: dubious claim) something i call the bear diet which is mostly fruits and vegetables with fish as the main protein source and something like once a month you eat a few hyperprocessed foods of your liking because that is when you, the bear, raid a dumpster in the suburbs

after the hyperprocessed foods, do you take tranquilizers to simulate getting captured by animal control and returned to the wild?

i would settle for melatonin gummies but well. knock yourself out

let june be filled with constant abundance, peace & quiet alignment for me. where everything meant for me flows effortlessly, and everything not meant for me falls away without resistance.

This is how we burned cds 💿

both of them are me

WE HAVE GOT TO START LOVING THE PROCESS MORE THAN THE PRODUCT AGAIN

fuck, I just realized that if I spend my life being too intimidated to make art then that means I don't even get to make bad art. I end up making NO art. that's way worse

Silly me, I almost forgot—this is the whole point. Book that trip. Order the extra appetizers. Laugh a little louder. Dance a little freer. Never stop learning. Don't be afraid to make mistakes. Stop waiting for perfection or permission, neither make a difference. Look with wonder. Lead with love. Lean in with excitement for what's next.