Junior Year !

I had a pet bird

And failed to take care of it

It died

My dad said I should get a fish

He loves fish

Severed

Sliced up

And thrown away

Is how I’ve spent my summer days

Lost

In a scattered haze

Melting into sunlight

Waiting to come of age

Lounging on a sofa

Staring off in space

Tugging at your skin

Asking you to stay awake

Do you remember finding peace

Among chaotic trials

Because now it seems

I’ve lost my grip

And now amidst the quiet

I’ve never felt quite so violent

An everyday hurricane

Its whereabouts unknown

Its forecast unaccounted for

Exhausting its rainfall

Lately

I’ve been more gentle with myself

And I cried softly

For the first time

When we turned our backs it was daylight

And the night fell

Like a revelation of darkness

Always waiting

Always fading

Into view

And we all fell too

And all our secrets

And all our mistakes

They delivered us

I rush beneath whales and mermaids

The shadowy clouds

Roaming the dimming deeper seas

Silhouetted green barriers

Streaming through the seams of my vision

Solace and mystery in teeming trees

Magnitude, solitude, and ever-knowing company

Stretching to infinities

But they hang down their arms to greet me

Fixed in proximity while crossing oceans and suns

Lay the surrealists and their deities

Here we are anglers among angels

Those we seek sleep appendages

Or fellow sources of light

And shadows flicker across your face

While you lust for space

For screaming, singing, kissing, crying, sleeping, dying

And release

You simply can’t explain

You’re in love, you dream of ocean swells

Doing somersaults off the continental shelf

Bubbling ‘time will tell’

For now let me know myself

Trying to bind the world with time

There’s room for two and I’ve killed them twice

I’m left to hold the ruins beneath my fingernails

I am confronted

By meaninglessness

Everything’s done with a purpose in mind

There always is

And usually must be

What’s mine?

Clarity doesn’t excite me

As much as passion threatens me

The heat makes me sweat the closer I get.

So if I’m overthrown

Cancel plans for my burial

I would never belong

And it’s quite too

Soon

Don’t mourn for long

Sunlight falls onto your words

You sit

Shoelaces tied around your ankles

And leaves pinned above your ear

Velvet thread encircling your neck

Some petals left on your desk

Writing to press something between your scriptures

Before the day begins.

I’m having a hard time being free

It hurts when I know it shouldn’t

To be seen

To be in love

To be growing up

The confusion only finds release

In tears

Or so it seems

That maybe I am

Coming apart at the seams ?

I like how the sunlight falls on our street

You sit there, by the window

Like you’ll stay forever

I feel like we don’t have much time

To make ourselves who we want to be

But I’ll hold your hands

As clouds pass by

And stay buried in your neck

While gold falls on your hair

Your eyes bright like the snow

And your breath sweet

One day maybe,

The sun may compare

To the warmth in your arms

And the light in your stare

Hope it’s okay

If I hold you tight

While the sky’s still bright

And when it turns to night.