LENA

I know I am blocked so I can say whatever I want. so technically it's like I am talking to myself. Um, I like it tha best when ur nice to me. Dont you see how I feel. Do you care? Looking in from the outside. You don't throw away a life time in a moment. I got in a bad car accident last night and it made me realize life is so short and you can die any moment.. and you decided on your own you don't want to be apart of my life, and I've had trouble getting that through my mind.. but last night made me realized you've missed 9 months of my life, because you do not want to be apart of my life. I have begged you everyday to come back to me, and you don't care. I cry over you everyday and you enjoy your life and move on. when I see you, I want to tell you all of these things you made me feel, but I can't. Because when I see you, I fall in love every time. you are just so freaking beautiful and I can't stay mad at you. I guess your happy and you don't care about me or what happens to me it's just hard for me to accept it. But last night I truly did realize I could have died, and you wouldn't have known or have been apart of life. and that's because you do not want to be apart of my life, and all I wanted was to be your everything.. You've always made me happy Briana, I've always considered you my soulmate . The one who I will marry .... I guess I'll just continue to Blame me. I will blame myself too so you aren't alone.. I can't even get over how much it hurts me to be away from you every ... But No one compares to you, I'm scared you won't be waiting on the other side.. and at this point I know you won't be waiting for me.. on the other side. I consider you my soulmate, my best friend, we've been through hell and back but all I wanted was to fix us together. we were meant to be together. I love you B. I will always love you, and always be in love with you. I will always know you are the only one for me. but I just prayed to God everyday you would come back to me and realize you belong with me. I CANT wait for you forever. I deserve to be with someone who wants to be with me. I would run to your house and get down on my knees for you, I love you. and I wish you could have seen, I would do anything for you. but I guess it's time to move on. to truly move on. I

Horrible

Both of our cars are fucked. my mothers white ford and my sisters car . We got hit on the parkway

I am so lucky to be alive… coming home from a nice beach day with my parents, sister , aunt tracey, uncle mario and tori … a fucking hit and run driver…. I thankfully am ONLY covered in bruises and received a bloody nose. but thankfully everyone is alive. for the person who hit us. you fucking will get yours. someone could have fucking been dead. but instead he just drove away.. seat belts save live’s people. I never wear my seat belt thank god. I did. I’ve realize life is so short and can be gone within a second.. thank you God for protecting my family. this has been the second accident I have ever been in and it’s been beyond scary. The front of the car is beyond destroyed because we ended up hitting my sisters car because the person who hit us , ended up hitting us again to drive away/ get away... so our car got hit twice. it was so traumatizing and I really wish I had Briana to talk to at this moment. life is so short. I’m so emotionally right now.

of course ... duh lol

Packing for Atlantic city 💁🍾🍸🍺👙👯