thank you so much for supporting!! i’m so excited for you to experience it! i hope to hear about your experience soon after you absorb the experience, if you don’t mind. i’m so curious about how you guys will relate/respond to this project! so basically @alanxalvarez came to me with the idea for the project on my birthday! (such an amazing gift from him) he came to me with the vision: the make-up compact, the accordion reflecting self image messages in the mirror, the vinyl sticker, the whole vessel is all Alan! he’s a genius!!!! this project basically started in collaboration early july. over the next few months i didn’t really know what i was going to make, but i knew the topic of self image and the details of the project resonated so deeply. i had a lot to say, but just didn’t know where to begin? i let it sit in the back of my head for a couple of months.i had a pretty woundy/emotional end of the summer-fall on top of my regular day-to-day existentialism, so those experiences alone really aligned with the meaning of the project itself and actually pushed me to express what i was going through into this project. going through a 12th house transit was honestly a great source of inspiration as well. i have leo in my 12th so when i go through those, my ego/self image tends to feel shakier than usual. idk, when it comes to self image there’s so much to express and explore. especially today when our culture is so obsessed with projecting these glorified expressions of who we are. i have a hard time keeping up with that because there are days when i really can’t stand being in my own skin. sometimes it’s hard to love myself. sometimes i feel unworthy. sometimes i feel divine. sometimes i love to give myself love. it’s back and forth. i think there’s a lot of the duality of having an image of myself in this project and i hope that it makes sense or ignites something in whoever is reading the reflections. they’re deeply personal. i really appreciate that Alan gave me complete creative control on what the messages inside would be, as well as the design for the logo and the box for the packaging.i honestly feel that we made a great team! since i live in washington and he lives in california, this whole project was carried out through text/facetime sessions. we kept in communication, planned things out, talked out the details, gathered materials, set deadlines for things, mailed things to each other, etc. everything came together so fluidly for being long distance tbh!!! i’m so proud of us! when it came to creating the material, i think it took me about two weeks to make it make sense? i selected bits and pieces from my journals, made collages to subconsciously express what i was feeling, made the designs, and i sent the files over to Alan on our d-day. from there he took care of giving it a physical form. he then mailed me a sample project for the photoshoot which was actually really fun as well! it got to me just in time for the shoot. one of my fav friends and i went out to hoh rainforest for the photoshoot. it took us forever to find a spot to shoot and once we found it my camera died and it started raining pretty hard so the actual photoshoot was super rushed and i wish i would’ve taken my time and shot another roll!!!! but- still, it was so special and lovely and i’m so grateful for this project and collaborating. i’m so blessed to have been a part of this project and i’m so grateful to have made something so magical with alan. and it couldn’t have been delivered without davids willingness to be a part of it as well <3 thanks for the question btw! it was so lovely to reflect on this experience and i appreciate you giving me this moment to re-live all of this through memory.
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