I Have Only Love

Do you ever Wonder

What we could have been

Do you consider the timing

Cyclical

Again we are

Here

Again in this space in this time

Time repeats—It jumps

It never moved

You can’t feel nothing

Like I wished I did when you left

Gone

From me, away

But again here

Like time never moved

I feel his hands still

Around me, within me, pushing me

—Out—

I’ll never forget Him

My first great love

Who tore apart all we built

Like sandcastles easily washed Away

Into the sea

But at the time

It was beautiful

But the tide has risen

And gone

With the moon

My heart beats and bears

The weight of the loss

Friendship — cease

Reborn as strangers

A boat steering in the bay

Crashing into mine

I build it back stronger than ever before

So it’s ironclad

Against future travelers

Awaiting a harbor

Safe from the storm and the surge

But for now there’s you

Who isn’t now or then or will be

But is always

Lapping against the folds of my mind

Wash away so I will know

And feel

And be afraid of drowning no longer

I’m tired of sinking

I’m ready to swim