hey y’all, the funny thing about indie is that i feel like when people disappear for a few days or ‘slack’ on their replies/interactions they always feel obligated to say sorry. every time people come back and make a post, they have awesome mutuals who say things like “omg! it’s fine! you need to focus on yourself”, but i still feel obligated to say it. so ... sorry! but ... i am really struggling right now. i thought that each day would get easier and i would get better, but that is not the case. instead, i seem to be regressing and falling back into patterns that are not good for my mental or physical health. i am really lucky to have people in the rpc who have been building me up and letting me vaguely vent and cry (like literally letting me cry until i fall asleep? can you believe that? there are actual saints here. can you believe that i am literally a sad sack of emotions? no one is shocked.) with that being said, i have no idea when i am going to be willing to log on and do the stack of replies that have piled up in my drafts. i have no motivation to do them. i have no desire to be on here. i really don’t have the energy to do much of anything anymore. i say this because i don’t want anyone to feel like i’ve been ignoring them or blowing off the plots and ships that we were so excited to write. i feel like a total jerk for not being able to follow through right now. i’m so sorry. if anyone wants to stay connected, i have discord on my phone and am always willing to talk about life or fun things (like dogs)? or even play silly games to pass the time? especially during this quarantine. please IM me so i can give you my discord tag if you want it. i’m always open to making new friends! i also welcome any and all advice that you might have when it comes to dealing with loss, grief, and/or heartbreak. i have no idea what i am doing, as i have never been through something like this before, and i am willing to listen to any suggestions that anyone has to make. i really hope you all understand. lastly, and this is for a very ... niche ... group. but if anyone lives near sydney, australia and has like? a younger sibling? or family member? or child? (idk) and doesn’t have anything to do on tuesday, july 7th 2020 ... and wants to go see frozen live (I SAID IT WAS A VERY SPECIFIC GROUP), then please reach out. i have 3 tickets that ticketmaster refuses to let me return because i didn’t buy the fucking ticket insurance and it has yet to get cancelled (due to covid-19). i will take ANY amount of money for them at this point. i just don’t really want them to go to waste if they still end up letting people go to it! i can’t say thank you enough to everyone who has been keeping my head above water. you’re all my little floaties. sydney
