聖魔天使

I’m not insensitive, it’s just that I don’t care anymore. Just like you. When I was crying, you didn’t care. When you were with other girls, you didn’t care. When you’d disappear for hours on end, you didn’t care how I felt. When you humiliated me, you didn’t care. When I explained to you that I find it disrespectful when you follow and 'like' a thousand other girls who behave in a vulgar way, you never cared. Now tell me, what respect do I owe you? When you abandoned me with a heavy burden on my shoulders, you didn’t care. When I had breakdowns because of the pain I felt and my inability to trust you, you didn’t care.. in fact, you made me feel guilty and like I was the one in the wrong. When I forgave you, talked to you, or tried to make you understand what was hurting me and what was destroying our relationship, you just kept repeating the same things. You never really wanted to change, you never understood the weight of your actions. When you cheated on me, you were smiling and calm, while I was crying. Now tell me, where the fuck am I supposed to see this 'great love' of yours? Anyone can talk about love. But in the end, what counts, and what remains of a person, are ACTIONS. You never thought of me before doing anything... ever. So why should I care about you now, or how you’re doing? You’ve never cared about anything. You just need attention and to feed your ego. Go back to those shallow people, that’s where you belong. Once I realize what I don’t deserve and what I do deserve, I stop feeling anything, and there’s nothing that can make me go back. When you see this other side of me... the one that takes a long time to surface... you’ll realize you’ve lost me forever.