wisteria

i talk like i'm picking my next words out of a hat at random

i find it very intriguing how young women gravitate to taboo as a means of control. in the tcc i feel that teens gravitate to mass shooters and the like as they are the bad boy archetype turned up to eleven. harris and klebold are simply vessels for them to express teen hatred and desire (e.g. i hate school and how i'm so isolated! those guys are cute but they'd never want me) hence interest in these mythologized figures they'd never know outside of the most personal tidbits (diaries, home videos, media they enjoyed).

the changes in my frenzied ritualistic behavior have changed from last may. now i am posting up many many pictures along my wall in at attempt to cover all and every blank space (going successfully! it's quite cool and soothing to create a cage/chamber for myself) and researching psychedelics.