Seeking my Daddy

Hey there everyone, this is gonna be quite a long posting but it's really important to me and hopefully it reaches the right person! I am 27 years old and from Ireland. I am starting this Tumblr page in the hope that it will help me to find my perfect Man. This is quite hard to explain but i'll do my best. I have always been naturally submissive to Men throughout my life. Ever since I was very young I have always found comfort & happiness in being obedient to Alpha/Dominant Guys. When I entered my teens I did what most young boys do at that age and started watching porn. I quickly realised that it was the Men in the videos and pictures that were turning me on, not the women. This progressed quickly to the point that I could only get myself off if I imagined my self in the woman's position in all these scenes. I thought I might just be gay but soon realised that it was much more than that. I wanted to be the woman completely. I identified with them and wished I could look, act & feel like they did. I was jealous that they were getting to please all these strong, dominant Men and hoped they understood how lucky they were. I tried desperately to suppress all these feelings and to have normal hetero relationships but it wasn't what I wanted. I started crossdressing and exclusively watching only "sissy" porn. I kept this quiet for years whilst I was in these relationships but I couldn't keep going on like that. It took me years to admit it but I can't kid myself any longer. I want to become a woman and to give myself over totally to someone who wants this as much as I do. I want to find my Daddy. I want to learn how to become the perfect girl for Him. I want to be trained on how to give Him as much pleasure as possible. I want to be His sex slave, His cook, His cleaner, His property. This isn't just about sex for me or just some kink. I want to be everything He wants me to be. I want to be owned. To change anything about myself that Daddy doesn't like or wants me to improve on. I have always had very feminine body features. I am slim but have wide hips and a really full, curvy ass but I want to become Daddy's vision of his dream woman. I want to be His girl. Any sort of surgeries or hormones...whatever it takes to make Daddy happy. I know my Daddy is out there and I want Him to find me. It doesn't matter if He is 10 miles away or 10,000 miles away. I am ready to leave my old life behind and to go to wherever Daddy needs me. I could go on and on about this for hours but i'll stop here I think! I am sorry if this seems all very serious but it is something I have wanted ever since I can remember. If what I have described above is something that you too have wanted then please contact me and I will go in to more detail and answer any questions you might have. Thank you for reading xx