trigger warning

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- hyper awareness of the fat on my body

- counting calories of other people’s meals in my head

- obsessively measuring my wrist with my thumb and index finger

- not being able to sleep if I haven’t worked out

- feeling extremely uncomfortable in anything that’s not an oversized hoodie

- feeling sort of proud in a sick twisted way when I notice the bad side effects of my disorder (thin hair, easy bruising, lightheadedness)

- getting really excited to go grocery shopping and pick out vegetables and low cal substitutes

- feeling like my disorder isn’t real/valid whenever I eat

- planning out my meals and workouts for the next day 24/7

~Dark thinspo~

Ok listen up, maybe until now you’ve fucked up several times, tried to recover and failed miserably, relapsed over and over again.

Stop. Take a deep breath. It’s August.

You might not have reached your UGW, but August is going to be YOUR MONTH.

Plan your meals, get out and go for a walk, throw away that food you know you’ll binge on, set a small goal and FUCKING GO FOR IT!

I hereby curse you to hit your UGW by August, never have to go to inpatient, be totally loved, and have all your clothes not fit bc they are too big!

but did i lost 13lbs in a week and a half? also yeah