you could call me ms. paramour

Training my nervous system to choose an unfamiliar heaven instead of a familiar hell

You have to let people love you. You have to let people get to know you. You have to let people help you. Being so completely selfless that you try to erase yourself off the face of the planet and never ask for anything and reject everybody's offers of support makes you very hard to love! Unfortunately. Emptying yourself out of everything that makes you, you is not actually what your loved ones want from you, generally. They want to make you happy! They will be so so sad if you don't give them the chance. It's not all selfish. I promise.

be around people who think everything about you is a big deal. your birthday. favorite food. favorite flowers. you in general. a big deal.

yes im addicted to attention and orgasms and food and shiny jewlery and 7$ Iced Lattes. does that really not sound like an awesome lifestyle to you

i highly recommend rereading books, really hits the spot