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basically, things have been weird lately in my head. i don't know exactly what it is, but it's affecting my "relationship" with sebastian and how i see him. parasocial and all that stuff. it stopped being a cool thing and became something that suffocates me. my breaking point came a few days ago with the rumors that surfaced. it's like i can't live my life or get attached to other interests.

i felt sick (LITERALLY) and everything that came to mind was related to sebastian, annabelle, bucky barnes, marvel... sigh. and my personal problems are affecting me more than usual.

i don't want to become weird about him or his personal life, so i've decided to distance myself. i'm going to take care of my mental health, live a little, touch some grass and things like that.

i don't know if it's related to how the fandom has been behaving lately, but i'm simply very tired. i'll continue supporting sebastian, but I'll distance myself a bit from all of this. with bucky or marvel, i believe it will be a little more complicated to distance myself, but i will definitely set some limits on that.

so that's it. i'm very grateful to everyone who followed this blog, liked it, shared it, etc. this place is meant to be a comfort zone and i hope i've provided that to some of you. even though i haven't formed very strong bonds here, this blog was my moment of rest, a way to escape reality for a bit. however, it became more than that.

i wish all the best not only to sebastian, but also to all of you who follow/support him. and please, if you've been going through something similar, don't be afraid to take some time for yourselves. social media sometimes makes us think that's all there is, but life goes far beyond that screen.

anyway, this has already gotten too long. thank you for your attention. thank you and good luck!!!

thank you for everything and happy new year <3