beka

my hypochondria is coming back again (the less i do and the worse i feel)

i literally see myself as a superior being who cannot be categorized into a gender and cannot be sexualized that can decide the life and death of others because im a deity and the owner of all the people and everything

wander in the dark, hoping to disappear

i think that my vision of the existence is twisted because i consider myself a soul that can travel worlds, galaxys and universes and my body is only a part of my voyage that i can leave to do another adventures

obsessively returning to that field of my traumas to find my lost ingenuousness.

you never feel how if that between people, in your places, in your house, in your school, in your city, in your country, there aren't spaces and possibility for you? and will there never even be in the future?

i left this place for a while because.. you never felt trapped?

all of a sudden i feel like a ghost. i feel so alone.