Sea Goat

Just one person in this 8 billion people living on this massive oval rock formation floating meticulously in space?

No one? Absolutely no one?

With all my beauty? My kind soul? My success? My positive behaviour? Really? No one?

But how am I able to love unconditionally when other people can't?

How can I give when no one can?

"you can't have everything"

I can't have everything

The thing I thought would be the easiest to have has turned out to be the most difficult

No matter how much effort I put, the person I want will never be mine

Maybe because I want what I can't have

And maybe because I can't have what I want

Like an inevitable curse

You work, you see results

But that's all you will ever see

Be successful at work and suffer in loneliness that no one can ever understand

You with all the trauma that keeps you going

Not that I could ever have it with him, i never liked his perverted desires and I thought it indicates weakness and instability which is so unattractive in a man, even though I admired his fun presence and child like behaviour I still despised him needing to cause pain to feel like a man, it means he is aware of his insignificance and is not at peace with his role as a service provider in a hospitality role so he's always looking for a woman with inferior nature and a guilt+daddy issues to dominate.

I want what they have, with the perfect partner for my perfectly imperfect self.

I want a spirit that makes my spirit feel at home.

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قال:

هقوّلك اختبار مهم، بس مش وحيد!

اللي بيحبّك ..

هيتلكّك عشان يكون مسؤول عنّك ومعاك ..

مهما كانت المسؤوليّة كبيرة!

واللي مش بيحبّك ..

هيتهرّب من أي مسؤوليّة عنك أو معاك ..