A tingle - sent straight to my spine, shiver

You push up against me and I can hardly breathe

Eager to take you in, eager to feel your body pressed against mine

Do you feel it?

Our tension?

It only happens in my dreams

But somehow that makes me want you all the more in real life

Am I crazy to have this feeling too?

To push this down for the sake of our loved ones?

For your - expected love one

I wonder if in another life we were lovers, best friends, and in this life -

My paramour

I know our plans, I know our duties

And I’m content to stick to them

But a dot of curiosity begins to fill my page

I will brush you off, like an eraser shaving on a blank slate

But each evening alone I become more befuddled

I’ll notice how you make me laugh

How you make me feel warm

Our chemistry filling like a soft porn

And I’ll wonder - if in some life you were meant to be mine

But alas - that’s all this is

Occasionally making me feel so blue

Like a battle that won’t let up

I view my emotions through clouded glass

but sometimes that glass breaks and cracks

Sticky pieces of paper with lines of ink