yo zack this is my stuff

(Outro) well last night was a rough night. but I don't think I'll have this problem anymore. because last night was the LAST night, and I don't think I'll have this problem anymore. and I hope you know I never do these happy songs... at all. I hope you know. that I had a good time. and I haven't laughed this hard in a long while. I'll give you a good time. it's 5 am and I feel fine chorus and I thought I lost my mind once you hear this song you'll know I'm fine chorus

it must be your eyes the way they shine in the light and I think I wanna know what it's like like even for the night I wanna call you mine you probably think I'm crazy give me a sign I just know I wanna call you mine I wanna steal all your attention I wanna feel all your affection why can't you give me a sign I wanna call you mine it's your smile the way you pull me in is vile i bet it's probably your style and I scream to the sky I wanna call you mine you probably think I'm crazy give me a sign I just know I wanna call you mine I wanna steal all your attention I wanna feel all your affection why can't you give me a sign I wanna call you mine and you you're gonna be prioritized not gonna leave you behind and I I'm gonna be yours for more than a night chorus end

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here I go I'm steadfast, steadily, slowly undoing all I've done all the praise that I have won from you and I can't win you over, it's too soon and I can't understand why I'm breaking commandments just for your affections I'm not cut out for this but if you insist I'll try my best but if you reject me I'll be okay if it makes you happy I don't want to fall asleep alone I don't want to fall in love again but here I go heart racing, enraged, yet engaged in all your scheming ways you put your hand to my mouth i still think as loud as I want I'm not cut out for this but if you insist I'll try my best but if you reject me I'll be okay if it makes you happy I don't want to fall asleep alone I don't want to fall in love again but here I go if you're afraid of dying alone if you're afraid of letting go I need you to let me know (chorus repeat)

cold shoulder I beg for mercy your sharp tongue and cold shoulder show me no sympathy and I'm certainly stuck in limbo stuck in this conversation chorus: I need forgiveness the slightest hint of positive interaction I'm not the main attraction but I can steal the show and rent us a room I need a constant your excuses and accusations are getting us nowhere not that you care but I'm hopeless enough to try a little harder to try for you chorus bridge: forget hesitation in this situation it's nothing or everything and I want your all chorus

Untitled and it all looks so familiar as we fall into the roles of a skeptic and a victim she will never hear what she's told but you makes the hardest things seem easy and Im sorry I don't see it it's just too hard to believe so I'm giving up on preaching because you don't listen to me and I don't know why you're coming back if all I do is leave and I don't have much to give you just apologies you make the hardest things seem easy I wish I could believe you it's not that I don't want to I wish I could believe you it's not that I don't want to you make the hardest things seem easy

chords????? You're my love, yes it's only one sided so it's mine unrequited, delighted to be your one and only if you need me please believe me I'm begging when I ask for you to listen or talk to me baby ooh, don't leave too soon x2 avoidance is key in situations like this but oooh, don't leave too soon heaven knows that I tried to be cautious and I watched myself fall, slip in awe for you darling I feel like running away, I'm kicking rocks along the pavement with you ooh, don't leave too soon x2 avoidance is key in situations like these but ooh, don't leave too soon I think I fall a little harder every night Now let me hear your thoughts and we can make this right I think I'm dancing on the edge of right and wrong I think you better leave but I don't want you gone Chorus

UNTITLED "soul draft" lol hey mr ambivalence, it's all just a show Spotlight, camera, go I know, I know, I know, I should have told you the truth but that's not what I'm here to do I'm here to keep you on track and I wish I could take it back chorus: I know I know I know I should have told you the truth But that's not what I'm here to do well I'm mrs "oblivious" but it's all just an act to keep your mind intact and I know I know I know I swore I'd tell you the truth and that's what I'm here to do formal apology issued I admit you really grew on me But I couldn't let you see it chorus: I know I know I know I should have told you the truth But that's not what I'm here to do (I'm here to keep you on track and I wish I could take this back) bridge: I'll be here til the bitter end if you ever need a friend and I'll stay by your side because I owe you my life chorus: I know I know I know I should have told you the truth But that's not what I'm here to do (I'm here to keep you on track and I wish I could take this back)

still have your clothes in my closet still have your clothes along my bed still have your warmth in the palm of my hand still have your warmth around my neck still have your tired eyes still looking into mine still have your clothes in my closet still have your voice tucked away still have your clothes in my closet still have your warmth on the right side of my bed still have your warmth in the palm of my hand still have your clothes under my bed still have your drawings on the shelf in my room still have your flowers tucked in a Tupperware x2 still have your clothes in my closet still have your clothes in the palm of my hand still have your tired eyes looking into mine still have your voice tucked away still have your phone number still have your birthday as my password still have your clothes in my closet still have your tired eyes looking into my camera, not into mine still have your clothes in the palm of my hand still have that worry for you, where you are, and who I am still have your clothes hanging in the closet and I can't bring myself to put them in the drawer still have your hands and how they felt on my waist still have your warmth in the palm of my hand still have your clothes still have tired eyes still hear your voice instead of mine

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it gets better

there I go again with my lofty goals and my heart is racing oh, me? what am I here for? what am I here for? here I lay again and my shaking hands grip the frame of the bed oh, me? what am I here for? what am I here for? you can't offer me enough you can't exchange your words for my safety the room around me is so hazy captivating crowds it's my voice ringing like a choir, belt it out oh, you you finally listen finally listen I'm a poet for the night I'm 20 going 75 oh, you you finally listen finally listen you can't offer me enough you can't exchange your words for my safety the room around me is so hazy and they say you have so much to live for you have so much to give but go away, I say, go away, I say x2 you can't offer me enough you can't exchange your words for my safety the room around me is so hazy and they say... you can't offer me enough you can't exchange your words for my safety the room around me is so hazy

I carve circles in my tongue just to have a taste of wholeness intricate designs so I can have a sense of boldness I shade in my ribs to add some depth and definition I stencil in a thought or two and put a key in the ignition my heart is so bare (I wanna do the impossible) (do i care about anything?) if my love was a canvas would you paint on it? would you do the impossible? ...

messiah (finished outro) I look at you like an angel looking upon her messiah I stand in a graveyard unoccupied admiring tombs of my all my past lovers scribbling my name in ink on the stones like a pariah sent to deface their rivals yet I look at you like an angel looking upon her messiah beaten, blamed, bruised, and bright red convinced and confused begging for mercy so easily refused I gave you roses, tulips, and medleys not yet bloomed and I cheated death not once but twice I could hardly keep myself alive I pray a third in this godawful strife for I look at you like an angel looking upon her messiah I stand in the wreckage admiring shards you left behind carving your name into the back of my mind like a pariah sent to the scene of her crime and I look at you like an angel looking upon her messiah

maybe pt 2 I'm the kind of person that changes with the windows open and I'm so all or nothing I can keep it all in, all down or I have to forcefeed myself and with Godspeed suck the air into my lungs or I forget to, turn blue, oh I'm so strung and maybe I'll find somebody like me and maybe I'll find somebody who likes me I'm not demanding anything or maybe I am? I'm a little rebel i talk to you when you say you're going to bed though I'm so exhausted wanna keep your face in my head and with Godspeed spit out all the words I was holding in oh I forget to, turn white, and red and maybe I'll find somebody like me and maybe I'll find somebody who likes me I'm not demanding anything or maybe I am?

I Want to Talk if you chew me up I can tell the world I felt your tongue met your teeth upon my skin read your book of thoughts unsung if you chew me out I can preach to you forgiveness I could never claim myself a sinless woman but I want to talk I just want to talk I just want to talk to you if you bring me down better make it one shot for one kill or pull the bullet out slowly, give me time to heal oh, if you bring me back I can give you an eternity unmatched I just want to talk I just want to talk I just want to talk to you

I think I'm having an episode it feels like parasites crawling in through my ears and into my mind and they whisper they whisper to me their static misgivings and they laugh at me they live under my skin but they're not paying rent I think I lost my mind i know that I'll be fine come two months from now you'll see then repeat