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Ya know ive never understood why some of y'all will repost the same thing from 19 different people. We uderstand you like it lol but I sont have to see it that many times in my feed

Fuck. As painful as it is for borh of us I miss the taste of your lips, the feel of you shudder, the sigh youd give just before you nuzzle into me to fall asleep. I know things would never be the same, the way they were when we first got together because I fucked that up and I'll never have it again, but fuck what i wouldnt give for one last shot to prove I still love you, still want you, still crave you.

I don't know if you look at my page or not, I don't know what thoughts run through your head. I don't know if you think of me the way I think of you or if you want to try again. All I know is that I will wait till my last dying breath, till the rain falls upwards and snow is warm to the touch. I regret the pain I caused you and wish I could take it all away but I know that's not possible. As much as I wish I could change the past I'd rather not because I'd rather work three times as hard to prove to you that you are my everything, my good days and my bad. The smile I need when I'm having a bad day or the stern voice when I'm doing something wrong. You are my home and every morning I wake up and hope for a message from you or a long book saying everything you feel. I don't know if you want to completely move on from me or just want to talk to me when you want. I'm just so lost and I need you. I need you more than you'll ever know, more than I can ever put into words and more than the dark needs the light and vice versa. I want us to be whole again and our heartbeats to beat as one. I want us as a family to grow and a couple that everyone envies. I miss you will never be enough and I hope that I am enough. My good and my bad. My attributes and my scars because with all of you I see beauty. I see someone who has been through so much but still has color in their lives. Maybe I'm crazy and should just give up, or maybe we are soulmates and are meant to grow old together. I just wish I knew exactly where you stood. But know this. I will always love you, will always be in love with you. My first thought in the morning, the last thought at night and everything in between.

It isnt easy being so in love with you and not being able to see you everyday. There are times I'd give anything just to be able to gaze into your eyes and hold you in my arms, even for a few minutes which is why I hug so tightly and not want to let go. I always feel incomplete, like a part of me is missing, when we're not together. I know that right now this is how things have to be, but that doesn't make it any easier to bear. Every day without you reminds me of the joy you add to my life, joy that I'm missing. So don't forget that I love you, that I'm thinking of you, and that I'm counting every minute until we're together again, a whole, us.

Words will never describe how much I miss you. Everything about you.