the bpd feel

- being quiet when you first meet someone so you can work out what kind of person they are and then tailor your personality to what you think they’d prefer

- choosing a personality for a date/meetup/interview/whatever is even more important than choosing an outfit

- tfw neurotypicals interpret you saying “i’ve been good” as “mental illness who? never heard of her” when in reality it’s more like “it’s been 2 days since our last abandonment scare”

- having a fight with someone due to mood swings and then it being awkward 20 minutes later when they’re pissed off and your mood has swung back up and you don’t care for what you just fought about

- cutting someone off before they can, then dissociating for the next month straight because you don’t know who the fuck you are without them

It’s about having your emotions be so intense but last for such a short time that you’re left with the impression that nothing you feel even matters

They may look like the person has become calmer and less involved, dismissive, even. Some people become intensely subservient and silent. Some become catatonic.

Panic doesn’t always involve screaming, crying, and obvious signs of distress. It involves an extreme form of the person’s fear response – which can be altered by circumstance, ability, and what they’ve learnt to fear.