Der Moment, an dem die Panik einen wegklatscht.

“Mit mir sprechen ist schwierig, denn entweder interessiert es mich kaum oder ich kapiers nicht”

“Never apologize for not being the same person other’s loved before the trauma. You are allowed to recreate yourself. You are allowed to reinvent your character, your sense of style and your hobbies. You are allowed to redefine your goals, your values and your vision of what makes a fulfilling life. That’s how you transform from being a victim towards becoming the survivor of your dreams.”

“I think we love who we love and there’s not a damn thing that can be done about it.”

“I now see how owning our story and loving ourselves through that process is the bravest thing that we will ever do.”

“The night is starry, and she is not with me. That is all.”

Depression

“Here’s the thing I’m sorry I drank and smoked and did those drugs after I promised I wouldn’t I’m so fucking sorry But I had to survive And I shouldn’t need to apologize”

“Es ist, als gäbe es zwei Seiten in mir. Die eine, die fühlen will. Und die andere, die versucht nichts wahrzunehmen”

“Honestly,there’s no key to my heart. Because my heart isn’t a lock. Not for you anyway. It’s an open book. I just hope you know how to read.”

“People scare me. They change their minds so quick. One moment it’s “I love you” and “you make me happy” and the next it’s “I’m not sure anymore” and “this isn’t what I want.””

“I’m homesick all the time … I just don’t know where home is. There’s this promise of happiness out there. I know it. I even feel it sometimes. But it’s like chasing the moon - just when I think I have it, it disappears into the horizon.”

“But life isn’t hard to manage when you’ve nothing to lose.”

Und mal wieder merke ich was für ein jämmerliches Leben ich doch führe. Ich kriege nichts gebacken, verletze alle Menschen die um mich herum sind, schaffe es nicht irgendjemanden zufrieden zu stellen.

“If you saw her in these moments, you might think she was collecting her thoughts in order to go forward. But I see it another way: Her mind is being overwhelmed by two processes that must simultaneously proceed at full steam. One is to deal with and live in the present world. The other is to re-experience and mourn something that happened long ago. It is as though her lightness pulls her toward heaven, but the extra gravity around her keeps her earthbound.”