Your Local Scene Catboy Astoroth

Invention idea: neurotypical translator that tells us what the fuck they mean

I will pay for this deadass

why is it whenever theres an autistic person in the media their special intrest is always like math or something and it makes them overly smart? like for once i wanna see an autistic person portrayed as someone who isnt overly smart but also isnt dumbed down, and like theyre special intrest is like an anime or something other than trains or math

Autism culture is having geniune feelings towads some people but in order to let them know of it you have to stop being yourself and fake a persona that can deliver those feelings to them in ways they could see and be convinced because your true self doesn’t look caring and loving enough but that causes you to be paranoid you are not being geniune and are faking everything and also leads to the situation were you get caught in a dilemma where your loved ones start loving your fake persona, not knowing how you actually roll, and later on leads to you starting to doubt what is real or fake anymore and getting confused and confusing your loved ones in the process and also being terrified they will misunderstand you once they see “the truth" and perceive your struggle as "lying to them about your feelings and care this whole time”, because that misunderstanding seems far more plausible to normal people than the confusing truth, aka “my feelings are geniune and real but i kind of faked my behaviour so that they’d be seen by you which looks suspicious but I swear I was telling truth even though I had to act in order to let the true feelings known”

I feel called out...

I feel like people who don't experience hyperfixations, don't understand how overwhelming they truly are. I cant do anything but think about my current hyperfixation, it's the first thing I think of when I wake up and the last thing I think of before I go to sleep. I feel this constant need to fully immerse myself into it and I struggle to do anything unrelated. If I cant partake in what I want I feel rabid, intense and irritable. I have this insatiable need to consume all forms of my interest and I will go mad if I cant.

Big fat mood