Scattered Within

I wrote about pain like I needed it to survive I felt things I wouldn’t ever want to feel again, but I probably needed that pain.

My life is a story book I’m still writing, learning and writing don’t judge the process.

Sometimes I get so caught up in my own mind, how could one keep up with yours yet. Bare with me there’s always a story to tell so I’m always writing.

I have to be messed up just to get messed up. Take those things that help me get through it all. I know the power behind being trapped within that soul. I’ll come back alive I’ll come back better.

I remember when music touched my soul when the drugs was flowing through my brain. I was always in touch with everything and I felt it all deep within.

Life is about growth but within growth you have to be smart enough to see the signs. You may be repeating patterns and not even seeing it.

Though I was enough and then I found out I wasn’t so tough.

Sometimes in life you aren’t even looking you aren’t even caring. You are just living and when you live stuff starts happening and sometimes it can be all for a good thing.

I don’t think I ever appreciated life the way I needed to appreciated life. Until one day something happened and life changed. I changed and the seasons changed.

Therapy within myself almost every day and it’s helping just like my soul that’s still fighting. If I’m growing differently let me find my own way within.

I was always too shy, but I was always a writer.

Words have power and if my words have it than let me speak it with everything within me.

When the sky turned grey and the darkness came, that’s when the evil came over me. In those far moments I forgot who I really was.

Now we are flying from the past, the past that wasn’t meant for us. Now we are everything here today, this is where we should be.

LSD that was something crazy but you’ll never understand everything I felt that night. In those moments I understand my life path and after that night my life did change. When LSD was flowing through this soul and mind.

If I fall down tell me who’s gonna get me back up nobody but me. Don’t blame me for this because only I ever had me.

I sit outside in the grass sometimes. I sit and think and remember sometimes. I wait for the feeling in the air sometimes.