autistic ghost

playing double up tft with my boyfriend every day is something i got way too fast used to and i love it.

pov. listening to 'pov.'s on yt to feel something

what i would give for feeling loved one more time..

thank you for telling me, that you don't want a relationship after i got attached..

i wanted to tell you about my day so bad, but you had different things to do, so i kept me mouth shut.

'why do i even try..?', I'm asking myself. but my brain doesn't let me fall asleep until i know that you're alright. all i can do is worry and keep writing messages, which you don't even read. I'm sending you paragraphs of what's going through my head. I'd be happy with a little "I'm okay", I don't need more.

You treat me like I'm a princess, but sometimes it feels like you dont even care about my feelings, even though i know you do.

i only wish you would care..

i just set 4 alarms to wake up at 4.30am, so i can wake him up with my call for his exam, because he is scared he will not do good.

when did my heart decided it's okay to fall in love with you? my brain didn't even had the chance to think about it a second.

My friends chilling and playing games together. I am still sitting all by myself in another channel because I feel uncomfortable.

imagine you and your partner are on a trip, walking through a little village right now. As they grab your favourite flower from a little shop outside while you were fascinated looking at all those things in the area. As you turn around they smile at you holding the flower straight to you. You can recognize their eyes lighting up as they see you turning around.

take care of your mental health