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this might be one of the photos of all time

it's the sight of a million regrets mounting over years.

now we have to pretend we didn't see what we saw.

do not forget your knives to save your lives.

we don't need another hero.

you never want this to be over.

and if you wanna go to heaven, well i'll see you right.

do you see the face on the tv screen?

i'm watching you fall!

you can do it any way you want.

the road that leads to nowhere is long.

if you got to say it, let me leave this room.

buy a piece of paradise, and you buy a piece of me.

it's the noise of the righteous dogma that hides the handmaid's tail.

had you had the chance today you could've sold out too.

it takes one to know 'em.

tell 'em all it is time.

was quite a scene, wasn't it?

it ain't always there to please you but he's the guy you wanna do.

there stood my god before me, do you know what they said?

we were speeding together down the dark avenues.

all we want is life beyond the thunderdome.

watch your step, he's out to get you.

wherever i go you're always there.

your looks and your feelings are just the remains of your past.

i should have known not to give in.

i won't back down.

can you hear me say your name, forever?

don't you stray, don't fade away.

put it back where it belongs.

you don't even have to leave your house or get out of your chair.

don't you forget about your friend, death!

i've been looking so long for you now.

back in the old cemetery.

don't you forget that you will die!

i wanna bewitch you all night.

she's just hanging around.

every day that you feed me with hate i grow stronger!

i have always kept you closer than you've known.

though my memories are faded they come back to haunt me once again.

those ivy league dopes, they wanna mock us.

god will take good care of you.

suffering for the lord is not an easy thing.

i've been talking to jesus all my life.

you tried to rid your mind of malediction.

see, the palace built of frozen tears is your own built prison.

i am afraid of eternity, too.

if only love could break these chains, life could go on.

can't make the same mistake this time.

if you choose to run away with me, i will tickle you internally and i see nothing wrong with that.

all the powerful magical mysteries never gave a single thing back.

besides all the stardom, all we got was blues.

light up in the middle of the day for how else could you see me?

i can never run and i cannot hide.

i'll get you everything you wanted, i'll get you everything you need.

every new generation hails a grand usurpation.

nothing ever lasts forever.

join us.

many a sin i have witnessed, and in many indeed i have been.

right here where it feels like i'm actually living, you are with me.

i just want you to see.

it keeps on giving me chills, but i know now.

i'm loving it!

all life is gone.

will you walk the line?

i've been quelling my urges to burst.

i'm with you always.

i'm number one, you're number two.

you will never walk alone.

you wanna shake it off but you're stuck inside.

if i could pause right here, i would open my heart and tell you with no fear that the path we have walked led us into the dark.

in your eyes it's gone before you know.

if you wanna get closer to him, get on your knees and start praying.

i will make you my angel.

through all the sorrow we've been riding high.

i don't wanna end like this.

you don't need to believe in hereafter, just believe in me.

there will be no doubt in your mind you'll believe in everything i'm saying.

my missiles are aimed to launch at your heart.

there's a darkness at the heart of my love.

i want a nice little boat made out of ocean.

can you feel me longing for you, forever?

i ain't talking about forgiveness.

would you let me touch your soul, forever?

you want a seat by the pyre?

there is a better place.

listen up, hatchet man.

who walks behind?

so, what do we do with our lives?

save me from the monster that is eating me.

wherever you may hide away, i'm gonna hunt you down.

it's the words that were never spoken that echoes through the times.

it ain't always what it seems when you cling onto a dream.

you wanna play with the sire?

tell 'em all this is war and not fighting a war is for suckers.

everybody goes away.

that glitter wasn't gold.

although it stinks, feels, and looks identical, a pack of fools can take the stand.

i keep on dancin' with the one i love.

if i could turn back the time i'd make all right.

we're leaving this city, so this is farewell.

listen up you motherfuckers.

ask yourself, are you righteous?

can you see what i see?

it ain't over now.

you won't get away from my grasp.

like your father in hell, what you've sold you cannot unsell.

you damaged my mind and my soul, it just floats through the air.

i know the light grows darker down below.

i wonder did no one hear the distant thunder?

what you've done you cannot undo.

i hope you're feeling it too.

i see your light shine through.

i'm coming back for you.

on the cover of the magazine there's no question why i'm smiling.

hey, baby!

we will go softly into the night.

you try to mask it but fall back in sin.

one day, fate will find a way through the marches of death.

we were searching for reasons to play by the rules, but we quickly found out it was just for fools.

you go down just like holy mary.

it's the continence of bishops with their choirboys en suite.

won't find me practising what i'm preaching, won't find me making no sacrifice.

now it's time for me to strike again.

you're standing in the wings, there you wait for the curtain to fall.

was i not all you were dreaming of?

i feel your hands are cold.

it is the end of your sadness and pain.

it's the sound of another deadline whistling past your ears.

luckily he wants to do you too.

so you want out now, don't you, love?

there is something inside me and they don't know if there is a cure.

you're the devil, you're just out to scare.

we all need something to believe in.

all you gotta do is call me.

she doesn't know about my girlfriend or the man i met last night.

you've been daddied by all the dudes that wanna dad.

we're here in the after of a murderous crafter.

but of all the demons i've known, none could compare to you.

i've been fighting the notion to, by love, be coerced.

keep your distance, walk away, don't take his bait.

it's the smell of the burning temples swept away by rhymes.

communication is key.

will our story shine like a light or end in the dark?

how could it end like this?

a man of faith is hard to find.

i'm victimized.

don't you forget about dying!

you're the phantom of the opera.

you keep a casket buried deep within.

you've got a lot of god's work to do.

all those dads never gave you the things that you should've had.

i'm counting my blessings and i've found true happiness.

you're the next in the chain of command.

the truth of the matter is i never let you go.

there is still time to make peace with your friend.

i get your point.

it is the end of a life grieved in vain.

i know that you're gonna scratch me and maim me and maul.

i'm done crying over someone like you.

one day he will come back from the bowels of hell.

we don't need to know the way home.

i can get you a pocketful of miracles if you promise to be good, try to be nice.

it's the tongue soiled in adulation that licks to no avail.

i have begged god for the remedy but i'm no longer sure.

this is what dreams are made of.

of all these dark roads that i roam, none could compare to you.

everybody leaves one day, i know it hurts.

what i want, i want now.

you've been playing around with magic that is black.

i'm runnin' wild with the one i love.

you know, and i know that you ain't got that long to last.

it's killing you.

you'll soon be hearing the chime close to midnight.

i see no evil.

it's the cruel beast that you feed.

when tomorrow comes, you will know.

we are the ones they left behind.

call me, little sunshine.

i'm done.

i'm runnin' crazy with the one i love.

you've been living so long in hiding and hiding behind that false mask.

just do as i say, not as i do.

you're so sharp, getting good reactions with your evil talk.

you can find me in the phone book, just call my toll free number.

drink me, eat me, then you'll see the light.

i put my love in you.

your desolation led you into this vile incarnation

a prophecy told we're building our empire from the ashes of an old kaisarion.

while you sleep in earthly delight, someone's flesh is rotting tonight.

she's trying to impress us.

do you believe in god?

you don't even have to touch that dial 'cos i'm everywhere.

remember always that love is all you need.

i've invested my prayers into making me whole.

i wonder when we are ever gonna change?

don't you vomit savage slurs, spewed up wickedly to hide from me.

if i could turn around i would've told you the truth.

something within your eyes said it could be the last time.

this is the moment of just letting go.

we will break away together.

you haunt me, you taunt me.

you can always reach me.

i am riding in the shadows behind you on a pale white horse.

i know you need it now to make you feel alive.

here they come.

many a rat i've befriended.

you shine like the sun and the moon and the stars in the sky.

many a mind i have haunted, and in many a way i have been.

will you spill the wine to summon the divine?

you have never stood this close to where you want to be.

i believe in the family with my ever-loving wife beside me.

i'll be the shadow, you'll be the light.

come with me to the holy land.

i'm dying to see you one last time together.

your beauty never ever scared me.

it's been a long time coming.

but it's not over yet.

it's just abracadabra, some hocus pocus sham.

put on the smiles and throw your holy rocks right at her.

long ago yet too close to forever.

is it all or nothing?

i'm dying to see you.

i'm your rock, baby.

there's a sting in the way you kiss me.

you know i'm helpless from your mesmerizing cat call.

it seems so perfect.

you have always waded in the shallows between me and the deep blue sea.

there's gotta be something better out there.

it is the end of your penitence.

there is still time to love once again.

that those who seek to go there are lost.

it's the truth of candour shown through a prism of deceit.

do you see the face on the billboard?

you know that it takes two.

you'd never want me to appear.

tell me who you wanna be and i will set you free.

this is the end of the avenue.

call out in the middle of the night, for when else would i hear you?

SENDER tucks RECEIVER into bed for the night.

SENDER pulls a blanket higher over RECEIVER'S shoulders.

SENDER presses a cool cloth to RECEIVER'S forehead.

SENDER brings RECEIVER a glass of water without being asked.

SENDER sits at RECEIVER'S bedside until they fall asleep.

SENDER smooths the wrinkles from RECEIVER'S sheets.

SENDER brushes RECEIVER'S hair back from their face.

SENDER warms food for RECEIVER and sets it within reach.

SENDER helps RECEIVER change into clean clothes.

SENDER bandages RECEIVER'S hands carefully.

SENDER stays awake so RECEIVER doesn't have to be alone.

SENDER offers their shoulder for RECEIVER to lean on.

SENDER rubs slow circles into RECEIVER'S back.

SENDER adjusts the pillow beneath RECEIVER'S head.

SENDER carries RECEIVER'S bag when it gets too heavy.

SENDER holds RECEIVER'S hand through the pain.

SENDER wipes dirt from RECEIVER'S face.

SENDER helps RECEIVER sit up gently.

SENDER drapes their coat over RECEIVER without comment.

SENDER reminds RECEIVER to eat.

SENDER cuts food into smaller pieces for RECEIVER.

SENDER cleans blood from RECEIVER'S skin.

SENDER steadies RECEIVER as they stand.

SENDER keeps watch while RECEIVER rests.

SENDER ties RECEIVER'S shoes for them.

SENDER holds RECEIVER when the shaking won't stop.

SENDER presses their forehead to RECEIVER'S

SENDER helps RECEIVER bathe.

SENDER changes RECEIVER'S bandages for them.

SENDER keeps RECEIVER warm through the night.

SENDER sits with RECEIVER so they doesn't feel alone.

SENDER carries RECEIVER when they can't walk anymore.

SENDER hums softly to calm RECEIVER.

SENDER shields RECEIVER from prying eyes.

SENDER braids RECEIVER'S hair to keep it out of the way.

SENDER wipes tears from RECEIVER'S cheeks.

SENDER keeps a hand on RECEIVER'S back in the crowd.

SENDER wakes RECEIVER gently.

SENDER helps RECEIVER breathe through the pain.

SENDER brings extra blankets when RECEIVER starts to shiver.

SENDER waits outside while RECEIVER gathers themselves..

⋆｡‧˚ʚ💋ɞ˚‧｡⋆   𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠  𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐞  𝐨𝐟  𝐲𝐨𝐮

𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 - send  ‘reverse’ for the sender and  receiver to  swap.  adjust wording as needed!

[  fever  ]  sender  presses  the  back  of  their  hand  to  receiver’s  forehead,  brows  knitting  with  quiet  concern

[  medicine  ]  sender  sets  alarms  on  their  phone  just  to  make  sure  receiver  doesn’t  miss  a  dose

[  blanket  ]  sender  layers  blankets  over  receiver,  adjusting  them  until  they’re  just  right

[  soup  ]  sender  blows  gently  on  a  spoonful  of  soup  before  offering  it  to  receiver

[  water  ]  sender  holds  the  glass  steady,  murmuring  encouragement  until  receiver  takes  a  sip

[  hair  brush  ]  sender  carefully  brushes  receiver’s  hair  back,  slow  and  soothing

[  ice  pack  ]  sender  wraps  an  ice  pack  in  a  towel  and  presses  it  gently  where  it  hurts

[  temperature  ]  sender  wakes  up  in  the  middle  of  the  night  just  to  check  if  receiver’s  still  warm

[  pill  ]  sender  places  medicine  in  receiver’s  palm  and  waits  until  they  swallow  it

[  quiet  room  ]  sender  dims  the  lights  and  turns  everything  down  low  so  receiver  can  rest

[  slow  ]  sender  stays  at  receiver’s  pace,  arm  ready  in  case  they  stumble

[  bandage  ]  sender  changes  the  bandages  carefully,  apologizing  even  when  it  doesn’t  hurt

[  lap  ]  sender  lets  receiver  rest  their  head  in  their  lap  while  they  stroke  their  hair

[  night  watch  ]  sender  refuses  to  sleep  deeply,  listening  for  every  shift  or  breath

[  warm  cloth  ]  sender  presses  a  cool  cloth  to  receiver’s  neck  or  wrist

[  cough  ]  sender  rubs  slow  circles  between  receiver’s  shoulders  through  every  coughing  fit

[  carried  ]  sender  helps  receiver  move,  taking  more  weight  than  they  should  without  complaint

[  pain  ]  sender  distracts  receiver  with  quiet  stories  or  memories  until  the  pain  dulls

[  soft  voice  ]  sender  speaks  more  gently  than  usual,  like  anything  louder  might  hurt

[  held  ]  sender  sits  behind  receiver,  arms  around  them  so  they  don’t  have  to  hold  themselves  up

[  protective  ]  sender  stays  curled  close  even  after  receiver  falls  asleep

[  food   ]  sender  convinces  receiver  to  eat  “just  a  little  more”  with  a  smile

[  stay  still  ]  sender  gently  stops  receiver  from  pushing  themselves  too  hard

𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐮𝐞

❝  hey.  i’ve  got  you.  ❞

❝  don’t  rush.  we’re  not  going  anywhere.  ❞

❝  let  me  do  it  for  you,  okay?  ❞

❝  i  know  it  hurts.  i’m  right  here.  ❞

❝  you’re  allowed  to  rest.  i  promise.  ❞

❝  just  focus  on  breathing.  i’ll  handle  the  rest.  ❞

❝  you  don’t  have  to  be  strong  right  now.  ❞

❝  tell  me  where  it  hurts.  i’ll  be  careful.  ❞

❝  i’m  not  leaving  until  you  feel  better.  ❞

❝  i’ll  stay  up  with  you  if  i  need  to.  ❞

❝  it’s  okay  to  lean  on  me.  ❞

❝  shh…  you’re  safe.  ❞

❝  i’ve  got  time.  all  of  it’s  yours.  ❞

❝  you  don’t  have  to  say  thank  you.  ❞

❝  let  me  take  care  of  you.  ❞ 

❝  you’re  doing  really  well.  ❞

❝  i’m  right  here.  breathe  with  me.  ❞

❝  don’t  apologize.  this  is  what  i’m  here  for.  ❞

❝  rest.  i’ll  wake  you  if  you  need  anything.  ❞

                  SHE'S  USUALLY  MUCH  MORE  PROFESSIONAL  and  put  together  than  this .  everything  about  the  work  she's  done  before  now  screams  professional .  she's  been  a  well  oiled  machine  since  the  day  she  showed  up  at  the  ministry  and  now  she  was  starting  to  think  that  maybe  those  gears  were  rusting  just  a  little  bit .  maybe  she  had  taken  on  too  much .  maybe  she  had  been  too  confident  in  herself  and  had  weighed  herself  down  with  everything .  but  they  trusted  her  and believed  in  her  ability  to  get  things  done .  and  the  more  she  did ,  the  more  she'd  be  trusted  with ,  and  the  more  she  could  have  to  REPORT  BACK  WITH .  right ?  was  she  still  even  planning  on  reporting  back ?  at  least  when  she  was  busy  she  didn't  have  to  make  a  decision  she  was  dreading  to  think  about .

there's  part  of  her  that's  worried  if  she  talks  too  much  while  she's  this  exhausted ,  she'll  give  herself  away  before  she's  ready .  imagine  letting  slip  to  a  ghoul  that  you're  there  to  spy  on  them  and  help  the  catholic  church  DISMANTLE  THE  CHURCH  OF  SATAN .  there  would  be  no  chance  to  even  think  about  the  decision .  she'd  be  tossed  out  at  best ,  made  into  a  sacrifice  that  she  wasn't  sure  really  happened  at  worst .  at  least  if  she  was  sacrificed , she  would  die  knowing  that  she  hadn't  actually  been  lied  to .  a  small  comfort  when  she  enjoys  the  company  of  those  around  her ,  of  the  abbey ,  of  the  frater …  and  the  idea  of  being  a  disappointment  to  them  actually  breaks  her  heart  a  little .  maybe  she  really  should  get  back  to  the  hotel  so  that  she  can  get  some  sleep  AND  AVOID  GIVING  HERSELF  AWAY .

“ you  would  be  surprised  at  just  how  many  pastries  i  can  put  away .  the  kitchen  hates  to  see  me  coming  in  the  mornings  because  who  ever  is  left ?  there's  little  to  choose  from . ”  a  tease  to  her  voice  as  the  other  runs  off  to  gather  food  and  coffee .  oh  how  could  anyone  ever  think  aurora  was  a  demon  when  she  was  able  to  offer  coffee  without  even  a  mention  of  it ?  she  takes  the  offered  plate  and  cup  before  grabbing  a  seat  at  one  of  the  tables  that  had  been  left  behind  FOR  THE  STRAGGLERS .  “ you  are  whatever  satan's  equivalent  of  an  angel  is .  i  swear  it . ”  

as like with everyone else, she is entirely clueless to the fact of a spy in their midst, whom she was currently conversing with. a dangerous truth if it were to ever to come to light. especially to that of the ghouls, if they happened to be called upon to handle the matter in their own hands, but… ignorance is bliss. she’s happy with the pleasant company and someone who doesn’t seem to mind her energy, even this late in the evening, for now. she’ll have to return to her room for well deserved beauty sleep but that’s a concern for later aurora, once she finally feels the waves of exhaustion kick in.

“early bird gets the worm!” there’s an equally humorous lilt in her voice as she turns her head to peek back over her shoulder before she comes and goes between the kitchen and the dining hall. she flops herself down in a seat across from judith, propping herself up by the elbows and lays her chin in the palm of her hand. practically radiating some mild smugness and mischievousness. “you wouldn’t be the first to tell me that. don’t know if there’s any sweeteners left around here, though. i don’t know about you but i’m not a fan of bitter coffee.” at her mention of it, the ghoulette’s nose wrinkles up in a mock display of disgust she soon returns to her previous amusement.

The water ghoul's sharp expression stuns Perpetua into silence for a split second before she quickly realizes that he means no HARM with questioning her previous statement. If there was anything that she was warned about from Mr. Psaltarian's brief lessons in how to be successful as Papa it was keeping the ghouls happy but behaved. If one of them were to challenge the Fifth with AGGRESSION, it was something that would have to be dealt with immediately in one way or another. Not that Perpetua planned on "dealing" with anything in that regard, the ghouls were allowed to be angry sometimes just as any other person was. Change was a difficult thing, complicated in situations such as these. Why would she strike punishment down for something that could be SOOTHED or at the very least understood?

no matter how difficult the changes have proven themself to be, all that can be really done is adjust accordingly. an inevitable change, despite conflicted feelings.

"however you wish to refer to it as, but yes, it's a necessity for all. to carry oneself on.” each has their own hardships to overcome along the way, rain knows not the ones perpetua has passed through, but it is an occurrence for every person. they hesitate, gaze flickering to the empty couch cushion before claw-tipped fingers gesture in return, acceptance of the inquiry to join them, scooting over more to grant more space for her. “poetry … i’ve found a fondness for books since i was brought here. do you enjoy reading?”

call me when they bury bodies underwater.

it's easier to try not to eat.

anything to get me to sleep.

i woke up surrounded.

they know, they don't understand.

i'm trying not to crush into sand.

wash away the blood on my hands.

don't wake me up.

lift me out.

leave nothing left.

take everything.

make me bleed.

give me all that i want.

you know you hypnotize me aways.

i have waited.

i know that you can see that you will be mine.

did you not say we were made for each other?

there is a new intention.

do you like that?

i stumbled into your trap.

i fall into your eyes like a grave.

keep the freak show talk to a careful minimum.

i'll find a different harbor to lay my anchor in.

i'm still full of the love you want.

i reach for you on faith alone.

seems your heart is locked up and i still get the combination wrong.

are you simply waiting to save your love for someone i am not?

maybe you believe that in the end, you will be better off that way.

won't you fall for me?

my insecurities surround me like lions in the den.

i feel like i'm losing touch with what i am again.

i remember why i cannot pretend.

i never think of you and all this screaming silence.

oh god, i wish you were here.

i am yours to the end.

every once in a while something changes.

you're changing me.

it's too late for me, i am altered.

i'm caught up in your design.

i see a different light.

let's talk about chemistry.

i'm dying to melt through to the heart of your molecules.

either way, i'm into it.

i can tell i'm falling further again.

i won't turn away. it's far too late for me.

i am broken into fractions.

it's too late for me.

just take it all.

you just don't feel the same.

you can't recall my name.

i've been left no choice.

don't you see that?

you come crawling back to me, but i'm already on the ground.

we all know the talk is cheap.

you don't wanna be around.

what would you do for me?

i won't repeat what i have said beforehand.

why don't you just say what you wanted to say for once?

you guide me in to safety and silence.

this is the start of something new.

your eyes and your limbs are instruments to pick apart.

let the tides carry you back to me.

my arms are open.

for the time being, i will still avoid my own questions.

you know, i can hold my breath forever.

you are still a perfect reminder of what all of these scars on my arms are for.

if i can hold myself together...

it seems my hell is your high water.

i'll smile through the agony for you.

i will admit my defeat again.

i will accept that i can't pretend we will ever be together.

i can't hold myself together.

i'd give anything to borrow your indifference.

it still makes my blood run cold to remember what they did before.

worry not.

my polite advances won't last for long.