Vivi's disc horse blog

It's a community formed around warped views on consent and relationships, stereotypes about disabled people and people of colour, and harmful views on self perception and identity.

The tags is a collection of people talking about harmful and toxic relationships, how they hate themselves and want to be hurt, and once in a while the idolification of awful people! But in all seriousness, it's the most depressing fucking place and when you're "in it" you can't even realise that.

Telling TransID folks to harm themselves, or worse, will not make them want to leave the community. Telling them horrible things while crosstagging your post will only make them feel unsafe, and as though people outside of the community would never understand their experience.

The fact most "antis" only focus on transIDs when they're attacking radqueers is so frustrating to me. For most people (and especially ones that don't fit the social norms) radqueer community is the last option after being ostracized and shamed everywhere they go. There are real and active problems in the community and all "antis" do is talk about whether transabled kids are a danger to society or not.

TW: mentions of self harm, rape, school shootings, grooming, abuse, cults,

A talk. I need to talk about it all.

Hello. I recently left the radqueer space and would like to talk about it for those interested in learning about the space or want their fears and criticism confirmed.

First off, why did I become a radqueer? At the time in my life, I was down, really down and needed a community, I needed people who would accept me, I needed people who would love me no matter what I believed in. I thought that the Radqueer space was a safe space to express my thoughts and be accepted. I was so depressed and needed that validation that I went to the worst places I could have gone to, but I was blind at the time. I was craving attention so badly I went to the one place that gave attention to everything, good and bad.

My situation there was more negative than positive.

Here is everything that happened that I can remember.

You were called a "fakerad" for being anti-contact or even neutral-contact. This made it seem like if you didn't do as everyone else did, you were an outcast, no one would like you, and you'd be harassed.

Rarely people tagged their NSFW posts. You'd be scrolling and be hit with the heaviest most triggering conabuse post ever and there would be no warning or tags on the post.

People supported confirmed abusers and predators and didn't care. They say that "they've change" / "they're changing!" But in reality there was nothing the abuser was doing to change.

LSDqueers and Basedqueers were common in the space. If you don't know what they were, to put it simply: they believe in noncon / non consent. Yes, they believe that rape is justified, that harassment is justified, that anything non con is fine. Many people did not care about this.

Harassment was common. To both insiders and outsiders. If you didn't say the right thing to someone they would call you the r-slur and fling insults at you. If you left the space and told others what truly happened, they would insult you and put you on blast on their blogs.

They believe that minors, animals, and corpses could consent. For minors, they believe in youth liberation, that minors can truly consent and that "theyve consented!" But in reality theyve been groomed into thinking it was fine. For animals, they said to "watch for body language" and just "be gentle" with the animal. For corpses, they said if the person consented before death, it was fine.

It was very cult-like. The bigger of a radqueer you were, the more attention you got, the more people would let stuff go, the more people didn't care about your actions. If you tried to leave or criticize the community, you'd be called a "fakerad" and be ostracized. I felt scared to leave the community, what if they come after me if they find my blogs once I leave? They made you seem like a traitor if you decided to leave.

Many of them are just groomed by the adults in the space. Many of them happen to be minors who were groomed and believe that they weren't, some of these minors actually want to be groomed by adults, and that they enjoy it. I saw that many of them were "transgroomed" and that when an anti would say they were being groomed, the minor would say "it's just validating my IDs!"

Many of the IDs these radqueers would have would be transharmful IDs. Such of which includes but is not limited to transschoolshooter, transmurderer, transrapist, transnazi, transhateful, transcultist, transcultleader, and transbigot.

Self harm was encouraged by many large radqueers in the space. One of which, I remember, had encouraged her followers to cut themselves because she viewed herself as a Goddess, they would ask where to cut themselves or how to do it, or "should I carve your name into my thigh? :3" and she would validate them and encourage it.

Many of the users were in the TCC, the true crime community. The TCC is notorious for their admiration and love of criminals, abusers, and school shooters.

Many of the transcultists wanted spaces where their transgod or transcultleader would encourage self harm and other very harmful acts like hurting others.

Thats all I can remember at the moment, if I remember more then I'll add it to the list.

Hello, we are back from our hiatus. We honestly needed some time off to come up with ideas, but now we’re collectively making this post.

We do admit that we’re kind of nervous of posting this one. It’s a serious and very much incriminating post that will probably stir the community up, but we consider this post quite crucial in regards of how the community lures you in.

TW: The BITE model is often associated with cults, organizations, RAMCOA/OEA and so on. It describes extreme emotional abuse that these groups use. Please, do not read if this content triggers you.

EDITED TO INCLUDE NICHELINK

The progress I had got deleted FML ;-;

But! I will not back down. This post is a list of alternatives for transID/transX terms for all the nice recovering radqueers who need a hand in finding nice terms OR the people who need any of these.

Important note: transIDs are rooted in ableism and racism since they “ask” you to transition into whatever the ID is. These alternatives are for the assumption that you do NOT wish to transition, and more of an auxiliary term to ease BIID and atypical dysphoria (which I struggle with as a disso-narcoleptic and a desirdae stoner).

TransID Alternatives:

Chronosian: a trans-age alternative for the people who perceive themselves as a different age from their own. There are multiple subtypes, but my search led me to two: jeuchronal (younger) and crucijuvenchronal (traumabased regression). The term “permaregressed” has been recoined and used for people with cognitive impairments and intellectual disabilities, as well. It’s common to be seen in systems, but anyone can use this!

Dissomei/dissodic: this one is a specific term to involuntary connections to anything. It’s specifically for atypical dysphoria or, in the case of our plural folks, for disorders that an alter has but the body doesn’t. For example, I (Stahl), Enmu and Noire experience narcolepsy in-system but the body doesn’t, so we use the term dissodic for ourselves. Dissodic may also refer to BIID, which serves as an auxiliary term for it.

Desirdae: similar do dissomei, it refers to a term that eases up BIID or an alter with a specific quirk the body doesn’t have. The difference, however, is that desirdae refers to desiring to achieve that “transition”. It refers to, for example, stop masking autism or ADHD, as well as alters being able to wish and crave for any need they have. As an example, I am a stoner in system but the body isn’t, therefore I use desir-stoner.

Aldernic: I can sum it up on “otherkinity on steroids” /j. It’s a term where you wish to have a different body from yours, typically non-human. This may range from being a therian to fictionkin. We can even say some alters do wish to look more like themselves bodily, therefore they could use this term.

Nichelink: It's basically a relationship that is "niche!" It's mostly referring to kink relationships that would be "problematic" if it was literal. It falls under the RACK kink acronym (risk-accepted consensual kink) and everyone is explicitly consenting to it.

Other Solutions:

Self-diagnosis: if properly researched and studied, your trans-disorder could be properly assessed and self-diagnosed until you find a good-quality doctor that aids you in your discovery.

Willogenic/Parogenic plurality: trans-plural is actually an oxymoron to me. With enough will and imagination, you can create an alter that comforts you and helps you cope. In this post answering an ask, we provided some evidence on how “tulpamancy” helps neurodivergent people. One recommendation, though, tulpamancy as a concept is a closed practice. If I was you, I would use the term willo.

Consented taboo kinks: THIS IS FOR ADULTS AND ADULTS ONLY. But if you have a need for any taboo fantasy, there’s nothing wrong with finding the right partner. As long as you are adults and consenting, there is zero needs for you to doubt yourself!

Archive On Our Own (AO3): we love AO3 in this household. There is a major chance that your fictional taste is met there. A reading a smit fanfic or two does not hurt anyone or you at all! My main recommendation is to keep it fictional and have no RPF media involved.

Important Considerations:

I as an alter am more neutral, but we are pretty much against RPF. Sexualizing minor actors is borderline predatory, and while the damage is minimal, it may cross a boundary or two.

For the adults here, I wholeheartedly recommend you to engage with kink SAFELY. Use safe words, have aftercare and, if pain is involved, be careful with managing it.

These terms are not law, and by no means the only ones. These could ease up the pain and issues with atypical dysphoria, plurality and BIID, but at the end of the day, we’re not doctors or professionals.

I am.. unsure how they would go about that because dread hasnt wanted to be associated with the term in a while anyway. if they mean the prefix for the terminology, that is mirror's language, they have no right to do that as upset as they may be, it's like coining something with a jewish person and they decide to name it after their language, later when they dislike the term due to personal reasons (cough, actual physical assault, cough) they ask it to be named something else because they dont wanna be associated with it, but you get upset because "well it already stuck, nothing else sounds as good anyway" etc etc. thats just plain disrespectful

the current owner, (whom I have lost contact with, idk if yans opinion changed) has also stated that he didnt want even derivatives of arisso in it's name, so clearly theyre not comfortable with it either.

i have spoken to multiple ex-radqueers who were in the community between the ages of 13-16 and all of their feelings were pretty much identical to how i felt about being groomed. other grooming victims i have spoken to about this feel the same way. the radqueer community normalises abusive relationships and present symptoms of abuse and mental illnesses as "transids" rather than something that you can be helped with. you shouldn't care about whether or not it's a psyop or satire because real children are being harmed either way.