Fanfiction (narusasusaku) - conversation between Sakura & Naruto after Sakuraās āattackā on Sasuke in the Five Kage Summit arc
Naruto(angry): how could you? Tell me you love me? Deceive me? Trying to kill Sasuke? I donāt recognize you anymore
Sakura(guilty): Naruto⦠I..Iām
Naruto: No, donāt Naruto me⦠not this timeā¦
Sakura(starts crying): I didnāt meant it like that
Naruto(confused): you make no sense
Sakura: All I ever wanted was to take the burden off of you⦠Sasuke is my responsibility too⦠and I donāt want you to die trying alone
Naruto(shaking his head):This is between me and him. Iām the only one who can bring him back and understands him. Stay out of it !
Sakura(shocked): Youāre suggesting to watch both of you die?
Naruto(serious): You make everything more complicated. I canāt fully trust you anymore after this
Sakura(getting closer): ? I know you think I deceived you but Naruto I truly love you⦠and him. I canāt just be a bystander
Naruto (voice low, strained): Loving us doesnāt give you the right to decide our fate
Sakura (tears falling): Iām not deciding it⦠Iām trying to share it. Iām tired of watching the two people I love most walk toward death like itās a promise you have to keep. And the worst part is that you keep saying itās inevitable like youāre so content with this idea!
Naruto(screaming for the first time at Sakura): Thatās exactly why you should step back! Itās a promise I made to you and myself. You hesitated. You lied. You hurt me and yourself and god knows what wouldāve happened if Sasukeās blood got on your hands! believe me, you canāt handle such a burden Sakura!
Sakura (flinches): I know. I see it every time I close my eyes. But if I hadnāt tried⦠if I had just stayed behind like you told me to⦠I wouldāve hated myself even more if I let you carry the burden all by yourself
Naruto (clenching his fists): You think I donāt hate myself already for failing you and him this whole time ? Every step he takes away from us feels like another failure carved into my chest. But itās my burden. I chose it for you and me; so thereās no need to hate yourself. But now you just added more trauma to the plate. Or am I wrong ?
Sakura: what do you mean ?
Naruto(also getting closer, looking Sakura straight in her eyes): How does it feel to close your eyes and remember how your lover tried to kill you, murder you in cold blood several times? Was it worth a try to carry my burden and āspare meā?
Sakura(eyes wide, speechless for a few seconds): ā¦..you just⦠donāt think you deserve help thatās why youāre saying all this to me
Naruto (laughs bitterly): hmpf⦠keep telling yourself that, you know the truth. You chose to poison me with hope you didnāt mean and canāt handle.
Sakura (getting closer, touching his chest): I meant it more than anything. I just⦠couldnāt do it. My love for him made me fail. The fear of losing him forever took over. But believe me Naruto, I went to these lengths, acted out of my character not just for him to end his misery but for you too!! I love you so much I canāt bear to see you crush your dream of becoming Hokage!
Naruto(pushing her off slightly): pleaseā¦stop saying it like that. You looked at me and decided I needed protecting. You decided my promise was something that could be sacrificed if it meant less blood on your hands, one kill only. And maybe anyone else wouldāve thanked you for that⦠but not me.
Sakura(sounding desperate): do you really think I wanted any blood on my hands or yours or his ?? No!! I never wanted this! But yes Iām selfish enough to protect you becaouse I donāt want to lose you ! I am scared Naruto, why wonāt you understand?
Naruto(walking from side to side getting impatient): ⦠I know fear. I live with it. I wake up every day knowing the road I chose might kill me. But thatās the price of my promise. If I flinch, if I let someone else carry it because Iām afraid of losing my dream or my life, then becoming Hokage doesnāt mean anything.
Sakura(whispering): you act like you donāt hear me saying I love you and I canāt lose youā¦
Naruto(standing right in front of her): You say you love me. I believe you do. But love isnāt taking the choice away from me. It isnāt deciding Iād be better off ignorant or spared. Loving me means standing there, even when youāre terrified, and letting me walk forward knowing exactly what it could cost.I donāt hate you for failing. I hate that you thought I needed you to succeed for me. For my own protection.
Sakura(touching his cheek): whyā¦. why is it so hard to let me in? I respect your choice but is it so hard to let me be a part of it and help ?
Naruto (eyes softening despite himself, leaning into her touch for just a second before stopping): You donāt understand how heavy you are to me, Sakura. If you walk beside me and get hurt because of my choice, I wonāt be able to keep going. Iāll hesitate. Iāll look back. And the second I do that, Sasuke is gone forever.
Sakura(pulling away): so youāre afraid that becaouse of me you wonāt be able to save Sasuke ?
Naruto(widening the distance): arenāt you the one who loves him most ?
Sakura(overwhelmed): w..what do you mean ?
Naruto(taking a slow breath, heart aching): When I look at you, I see someone whose heart has been tied to his since we were kids. And every time you smile a little less, every time you pretend youāre fine, I know why. I know exactly the source of your pain. It comes from loving him too deeply, other people might even call it toxic love.
Sakura:ā¦I donāt understand
Naruto: what Iām trying to say isā¦a big part of why Iām doing this is because of you. Because I want you to laugh the way you used to. I want to see you happy again. Your sadness isnāt loud, itās quiet and terrifying. I see it in the way your eyes hesitate before they meet mine, like theyāre holding a secret pain you donāt want to give anyone permission to touch; so petrified someone would use it against you and you would completely shatterā¦.
Sakura(voice steady although shivering): You think I donāt know that? You think I donāt feel it rotting inside me every single day? Yesā¦my love for him became something toxic. But you know what hurts more than admitting that?
Naruto(staring into her soul, not even blinking):ā¦
Sakura(gettin really close to his face, tears running down her cheeks): Realizing that while I was drowning in that toxic love⦠you were quietly becoming my anchor. You were there every time I fell apart. Every time I pretended I was fine. Every time I smiled so no one would ask questions. You never demanded my heart, never blamed me for where it was⦠you just stayed. You grew beside me. You believed in me when I couldnāt even recognize myself anymore. And somewhere along the wayāwithout me noticingāyou stopped being the boy who chased me⦠and became the man I trusted with my life.
Naruto(wiping away her tears): Sakuraā¦
Sakura: I donāt understand why I still love him after everything⦠after he made me feel so small and irrelevant⦠when you created so much space for me. For my anger. For my guilt. For my silence. For my pain. When Iām scared itās your voice I keep hearing.. the endless support you give me, I just want to give back⦠so please I beg you let me help you bring him back !
Naruto(pressing his forehead to hers): how come I am hearing everything I wished to hear from you, yet this wonāt change what comes next⦠If I let you fight beside me now, it wonāt be about saving Sasuke anymore. Itāll be about protecting you. Every move I make, every choice, Iāll be measuring it against the look on your face, against the fear in your voice. Iāll hesitate. Iāll soften. And Sasuke doesnāt need softness right nowāhe needs someone who can face him without looking away. This is something that started long before you or I understood what love was. Itās a promise between two idiots who grew up alone and decided, in different ways, to survive by refusing to let go.
Sakura(slightly straightening her head, their faces closer than ever): please⦠I implore youā¦
Naruto(sighting): donāt beg meā¦please
Sakura (sobbing): Thatās cruel⦠you know thatās cruel.
Naruto: I rather be cruel to youā¦I wonāt turn your love into leverage. I wonāt let your pain be the reason I hesitate or the reason I fail. This is between me and him, and it has to stay that way.
Sakura(whispering softly): but my pain is also the reason youāre doing all this ?! Itās so paradoxical!!
Naruto: I know. But Sasukeās anger is too dangerous to play around. Heās not acting outāheās convinced himself that hate is clarity. Every move he makes is precise, deliberate, meant to cut away anything that reminds him he was ever human. If I face him and hesitate, even for a second, he wonāt stop. Heāll destroy everything in front of him⦠including himself. I need to be ready to hit him. Hard. Not out of anger, but to wake him up. To reach him in the only language heāll listen to right now.If youāre there, Iāll hold back. Iāll worry about you. And thatās how I lose him.This isnāt something I can share. I have to stand in front of his darkness aloneāand not flinch.
Sakura (grabbing his face,lips so close to his but stops herself): Naruto⦠Iām so deeply sorry
Naruto(putting some distance): I canāt give you what both of us want Sakura. And I donāt want your apology. I want you to stop believing that loving deeply makes you guilty. It doesnāt. On the contrary it makes you so vulnerable and beautifully strong!
Sakura(gives him a small push and a smile appears on her face full of tears): I didnāt want you to kiss me.. you idiot
Naruto(grinning widely): yeah yeah⦠tell yourself that. And back to the topic⦠someoneās gotta knock some sense into that annoying idiot. You know Sasuke gets one tragic backstory upgrade and suddenly heās allergic to sunlight and good decisions.
Sakura(giggling): Go punch him for me, okay? Really ,really hard. If he starts monologuing about hatred or destiny, just hit him again. And please tell him that punch was from me. Even though Iāll punch him when he gets home.
Naruto(smiles warmly): I promise you will get the chance to punch him endlessly and Iāll be youāre front row spectator
Sakura(giving pinky promise): okay. Deal.
Naruto(touching her face softly): Heyā¦and no matter how dark things get out there, remember thisāyou were never a burden, and you were never alone. You gave me something worth coming back to long before you ever realized it. So hold onto that smile for me, okay? Iāll find my way back to it and Sasuke will find his way back to you too! I promise on my life!
Sakura: okay⦠I will stay out of it⦠weāre such idiots⦠I canāt believe it
Naruto(letting out a small, familiar laugh, rubbing the back of his neck): Classic team 7. of course weāre idiots. Honestly⦠if anyone else tried this, theyād be dead already. Weāre the only ones stupid enough to survive itāand somehow, thatās our superpower.
Sakura(laughing): yeah⦠only we could survive this mess