IntegraWon'tSurvive

My camera quality is not very good and my room is badly lit, sorry for that, but either way: FIRST OF ALL!!

THE HALF-LIFE STANDS!!!

These are so so so unbelievably cool... I'm not sure if any other stand with them exist at all in the world, so you did god's work by making these. Your art style?? Godly. All 5 are so cute and professionally looking! And, oh my god, ADRIAN SHEPHARD MERCH??? This is such a luxury, like, does anyone make merch with him?? YOU do. LOVE IT WITH ALL MY (half-)LIFE! This is one of the most valuable things I own in my house now.

VALVE PINS!!!

Ideally I should buy an itabag to preserve all of this, and i probably will in the future but... I really like my deadbeat backpack I had since 6th grade lol, they live there for the time being.

(my backpack is SO heavy now from all the merch. worth it.)

AAAAAAHHHH SO PRETTY😭... I am in love with how you draw chibis! I'm very grateful to have Portal pins too!! Wheatley is very handsome. There was a Glados one too but I was hesitant to put it on the left space... I'll make a good use for it later for sure!

Also special thanks for making yuri merch because it's pretty dangerous to try printing them where I live, so thank you from all my heart for that🥺❤️ Love your ggman so so so much!

Speaking of ggman!

Ooooohhhhhh mama.........

I would be so scared to loose them going anywhere so I pinned them on my sketchbook. I love how the locker looks like an anatomical heart... I love it SO much. So unique and full of love, I don't think you can get ggman merch so good anywhere... Uwaaa... Yuri...

I also love these little guys!! Little acryl half-lifers... I haven't decided where to put them yet, I'll probably glue them to the wall or something. SO CUTE!!! All of them are here!!

AND THIS!! LOOKS LIKE AN ICON!!

For real, this picture has a texture like that of a religious icon my grandma used to have on her wall🥺... And it does look religious too! This whole art, ahh.... I'm always amazed at your ideas and composition and symbolism... Very divine, very holy. Praying for this one every day. ALSO A VERY AWESOME GENTLESURGERY STAND HERE!! TASTY!! Love them in your style so much...

I am also a fan of your ggman idol AU (teehee)! The cards (bookmarks..?) are amazing!! Really are like those kpop collection cards you put in albums.

OHH THE GMAN STICKERS!!! GWOMAN?? YESSSS!!! So high quality. I am also very grateful for hl x tf2 crossover here, that's a very rare piece of merch to have it (hehe cumburger)--

wait........

IT'S A ONE WHOLE STICKER???????????????????

No freaking way. I only realized it when I started peeling it off. Gladly, I had a good place for it!

Ahhhh your ggman... Your vision of them singlehandedly made cought me in a grip. You understand them SO WELL, so juicy, yeeesssss!!! Love your prints so much. All your art is so carefully crafted with very unicue, very interesting artistic ideas.

Thank you, thank you do much for this...

Also.

Rakuen... It came!!!🥺🥺🥺

It wasn't taken away at the post as we feared! I am... So freakin happy... To own the real thing...

A full hand drawn story with amazing, deep visuals and writing... Something so profound and quality, so gloomy and liminal... You are my absolute favourite artist in hl fandom. I love you. I love you!!!

and now the awesomest part:

TEAM FORTRESS STANDS!!!

ABSOLUTELY AMAZING!!!!!!

ALL 9 (2 pyros 0 medic lol) APPLE, THIS IS COLLECTION WORTHY...

I feel like a richest man on earth with them. They are so hight quality, so filled with love and care. I adore how you drew little moments from sfm/gmod videos of them, with every class you chose something that represents each one, so carefully and tastefully putting it into a collage... I can also tell Demo is your favourite lol❤️.

And the print versions too!! Ahhh so beautiful... The paper texture is very pleasant on touch too, rough and scratchy. High quality! Ahhh they're all so cute in your style I caaannnttttt.... You are a blessing to both of these fandoms, Apple.

And I guess this one os a little more personal? Oh!

IT'S HANDMADE???? WAAAAA???? OMG???

THIS IS A TRADITIONALLY PAINTED PICTURE PUT TOGETHER WITH STICKERS AND??? Omg where did you find a syringe. Ohhh my god, this is SO good. I put it on my keys. I love gentle surgery. I love you. Thank you. Thank you so much.

And this all came in "brand" bags too????

["這個袋子裡的東西超好吃的" ??? 你没有撒谎]

Apple, you are an official Valve artist for me. 我从心底里感谢你。

The separate thing that Era sent me:

A 200 pages fanzine?????

Guys, this is simply amazing. And very exclusive as I can tell??

There aren't many artists (usually there's x3 times more) but they made SO MUCH!! There are whole chapters dedicated to these artists and what they want to say. I love it so so so much!!

1st picture: art by bast/memily (not sure about socials, sorry), 2nd by @/woshiachun , 3rd by @/wanmojie !!!

Era!!! Thank you for your prints!!!

You know well how much I love your gentlesurgery. I am so so soso happy to have them on my wall now!! So much yaoi!! You're my absolute favourite tf2 artist and a lovely friend mwah mwah mwah ilyyyy❤️❤️❤️🥺🥺🥺

And those amazing prints too! Spies by @/Christina_was on twt! Amazing glowing prints and texture and overall very intimate atmosphere of your arts, ahhhh, love it!!!🎀

Thank you all SO MUCH for these amazing gifts... Era I owe you 100 medicspy. I still can't believe this is real... There were even more, but I just couldn't take photos of everything, but I really, really cherish it all!

You know, I used to think I don't need any material goods in my room because it doesn't make sense, why would i buy stuff for myself? I wanted to move out, so why would I bother making my room pretty and full of things I like? It was so empty and unfriendly all this time.

But in the beginning of this year I actually started bying miscs that make me happy. First it was manga, then Era sent me a little bit of her merch, then IT WAS THIS GIANT BOX OF HAPPINESS!!

Now my room is a museum of the things I love. I feel the happiest and richest I ever was. I finally feel like I belong.