There she goes..

Hey you. How have you been?

Just have this feeling of being empty and at peace wrapped into one today. How can it be possible?

Gone were the days where I struggle to understand and gone were the days where I seeked answers. Now it simply makes sense to live a life of not knowing and being care free.

I guess, this is me now.

I value time like it's the more important thing in the world. It's funny how I used to not be bothered but it hit me.

I want to spare myself from a relationship that doesn't exist or efforts to make a difference.

I want to be there for myself and take care of me like no one will.

Heyy’all. I just realized i havent posted since June 2021. It’s just right around the same time that i’ve realized that i have already found the love of my life. We now have our first baby, Baby Z. 

I remember the times when i thought i was already hopeless. Now, im already heading towards finally being able to say “dreams-do-come-true”. I could not have been more grateful to my lifelong partner for supporting me and understanding my mental health.

Im still praying that we still get to achieve more. We still have to set our goals by having our own business, owning our new house, paying all our debts, having enough on our savings account and bye 2025, our first baby.

It’s in fact overwhelming. But hell, i know we can do this! 

Over the years, i always prioritize other people before myself and try to save them as much as i can. This is the reason why it took me this long to get here.

So if my 20-year-old me could just read this right now, stop wasting your time and effort for people who will never be there for you in the future. Its just you, okay. Love yourself Cessy, thats all there is. And chooooose your crowd. People might never get that, and trust me, its okay, cos you just do what you gotta do cos nobodys gonna do it for you.

You tried to save so many people and look how broken you are. Now that you're on your own, you make it. YOU ACTUALLY MAKE IT.