this is pretty much my filthy diary

I'm playing Road to Empress (the first video game I ever played in my twenty years of life btw I'm so excited!! And ofc the first game I ever bought 💀). IT WORTH THE MONEY I SWEAR.

Merlin, if magic is legal:

To this day, Xiao Longnu and Guo'er is really the wildest cdrama couple ever bc Xiao Longnu don't give a fuck about anything in general (she's my socially awkward cinnamon roll), Guo'er don't give a flying fuck about anything other than Xiao Longnu (he ran out of them ages ago) and spent probably half of the show finding her, Xiao Long Nu keep running away, one of them is always constantly poisoned and then get poisoned some more (someone really said double it and gave it to the next person to Xiao Long Nu 😭), they have a legit suicide pact they were about to fulfill various times, basically PDA in front of massive crowds who was trying to kill them not once, not twice, but thrice, basically scandalize the whole world with their taboo relationship, kidnapped a baby TWICE once to literally sacrificed her the second out of spite 😭, plan the murder of Guo'er's uncle (who is very good man) without hesitation and get married in a place where marriage was not allowed while holding one of the priestess hostage as a sect tried to kill them outside. Build snowman out of a living person. And SO MANY MORE. THEY ARE SO BONNIE AND CLYDE y'all.

Fella is it gay that I saw a pool of bright sun ray and start hallucinating you bathed in it, smiling at me because how much I missed and mourned you for your death and the night before you expressed how disappointed you are at me and broke up with me because I'm not the person you fell in love with 20 years ago anymore?

Ughhh the fact that some of the villians in the Advisor Alliance are so human is sometimes what makes them frustrating. Cao Cao is a good father and husband and he does care about the Nation but at the same time he's a selfish power thirsting person.