nosce te ipsum

You came into my life by surprise.

Deep inside of my cluttered mind, I know myself have always craved for the existence of someone, just like you. 

and so one day you came, by surprise. 

I wasn't ready, it’s just like opening a box of gift that you’ve long forgotten about. The joy, the happiness, I wish I could keep it all.

Your existence may be new but everything that you said, everything that you liked, the way you speak, the way your mind works...gosh, why do I feel such magic rushing through? 

Do you remember the little promises we made? It slipped out casually from our mouths, but the weight of the promises, I carry it all with me. A burden that I don’t mind carrying on my shoulder. 

And all I tell to myself is, I want to keep you, forever. But I will never find the exact classification for you, or even for us. 

Sadly, this feeling is merely one-sided. At some point, I got really mad and sensitive, I start to analyze every details of your actions and words gradually leading to the dark hole of insecurities. 

And I came to the conclusion: I’ve been taken for granted. The anger build up and there I lose my senses or more precisely, my eyes unveil the things that I choose not to see. Not gonna lie I was mad, I was jealous. I thought at least, I could be a little special to you, just like how I always adored you.