love will tear us apart.

As hard as the past couple of years have been and having the only family members I know get dementia has taught me so much . Who is really there for me , what’s worth my energy , how precious life is , compassion and so much more . Oddly it was the kick in the ass I needed being their care giver for 3 years and now I’m ready for my next adventure …. With a pod cast on the go and other things in the works I am a little hopeful , but also sad and happy at the same time and that’s the hard part with depression .

I can’t believe I am so old and dealing with so much in a long time since I’ve logged on here, but thought I would share a little bit about what’s going on with me . Yet again, my kindness has been taken out of context, and again my endometriosis has not taken seriously. What else is new. These two women that I thought were my friends obviously never were, for months, heaven, and grating up, and I have screenshots of it . To basically just be a little me to the point of no return the one I thought actually didn’t care I realize that’s not true. Call someone apprehensive, and dropping someone off at a Holiday Inn. And they are two hours away from their own home and they do not have a charger with them and saying nothing but yet saying that it was for my safety, even though they are a mental health counselor. It is ridiculous. It is sad that even if I did say that I was depressed or whatever came out of my mouth that they would not even help people are so odd and so cruel. And then the words that were said to me were unreal. I already wasn’t going to be attending anything that had to do with anybody let alone let anyone talk to me. It’s funny though when they needed money I was all good. Had to get this off my chest because I know that I am not always in the right and I probably wasn’t in the right that I drink anymore like I used to not saying that I was done though, but they could’ve been kinder considering my grandparents are dying and I have the caregiver. It’s very difficult on top of being very sick myself. I don’t know I don’t know I’m probably reads this , but had to get off my chest.