sarah is speaking

so fuickigni mcuh

one more to go

onto thes econd

okay i have it im heading upstairs now im taking the other diaries with me too

there are 2 more diaries

and scrap papers

i took the key out of my pillow and im heading downstairs. heres the plan:

grab the diary and go back to my room

take photos of the diary to show

put the diary back

look through some other boxes (if i feel up to it)

im going to try to rest before going into the basement later. i need to see whats down there before mom gets rid of it.

i went out a little bit today but that website from yesterday still freaks me out. i got scared so now im back inside but i dont feel much safer

i liked being outside when mom works or makes dinner. even though i can feel her stare at me, at least theres a barrier between us. theres no privacy here. outside, theres a wall and window that separates us

like...thats how our lives have been, hasnt it? were family we live together yet i dont know her. and she doesnt want me to know

ive thought about telling her everything thats been going on the past couple of days. i know a lot of people have been wanting me to talk to her but it feels so hard. she wont even let me clean the basement with her how would she react to all of this?