Sarah

I keep wondering ..

What's wrong with me? Why do I feel always odd around people? Why do the things that make people excited feel nothing for me? Why can't I be normal?

It hurts me to see people planning for their future, drawing plans and goals, and fighting for it, while I feel nothing, I see nothing, I see no one with me, I see no place that I possibly could be happy on it

Is it bad that I don't want to live a long life? The things that I want in this life are simple and don't want that long period of extended time to achieve them

Actually, my only goal is to survive, every day I wake up I just think of how am I going to push myself to finish this day, every day feels like a test for me and I keep fighting my own feeling of worthlessness

It seems fine now but I know one day, even this little goal might vanish as I just don't want to keep living this way...

I even feel unworthy of expressing myself as I know I seem ungrateful for the life that I have

fatima aamer bilal, from being unwanted is a language.

Turdus cardis [クロツグミ,Japanese Thrush]

Sometimes people aren’t their best selves to you, and while it hurts, it doesn’t mean you did anything wrong. Their actions reflect on them, not you.