Every conversation ever spoken,

anchored in my mind,

repeated.

Rethinking,

overthinking:

which word was out of place,

which gesture was wrong?

Did I say too much,

was it too little,

did I speak bullshit

or not at all?

Does he hate me now?

Does he think I'm weird?

Does she think I'm too much?

Every word on a continuous loop

Lock me in a room Dark, but not dreary Cuz I'll be alone Nothing to see, hear No one to talk to, listen to

I'm not ready to face Anything and everything  And I'm not ready  To be someone to anyone  Maybe I'm not ready To be okay, okay, okay?

The future is a mountain  And I'm at the bottom  I'm reading the map It says it's pretty scary  I don't know, I don't know

Lock me in a room Lights off, soundproof  Give me a corner Any of the four options  Silence is comfy But only when it's real My sensory stability  It's gone past what I feel

The future is unwritten  But it's stated clear, In bold, black, lines It's very much there And just as much unclear

Of course, then we have to wade through a whole lot of nonsense about Nikki not being a traitor somehow (least believable plotline) and Patricia Thornton being the actual traitor (second leave believable plotline) but it's all saved by gems like Jack lying on his dating profile, the squeaky toy scene, Riley and Bozer having to interrogate Murdoc to save the day, and absolutely everything to do with Sarah...and the drama of Sarah's wedding, which Jack absolutely canNOT handle as a concept.

Sarah: And here I thought you just didn't get the invitation.

I'm sure I've seen this episode a dozen+ times but Jack's total heartbreak gets me every time. Walking away from her at the hotel is sad enough, but then the wedding.

This is Mac's "I'm not sure this was a good idea" face.

Jack: Everything is fine, I'm cool with this 'cause I'm so badass.

Jack being so cool with this.

Mac: Are we about to have a problem here?

Sarah, for entirely different Jack-related reasons: Are we about to have a problem here?

Jack: Everything's fiiiiiine.

But also Jack:

The torture was better than living through this wedding.

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