I don’t know how to explain the way I adore Normal People, the TV Show and the book too. The reason why is this one scene (among others, but this one really hits me) the one where Marianne’s brother breaks her nose, Connell finds out and comes and gets her away. And then, they sit in the car, and when he says “Everything’s gonna be alright again, trust me. Because I love you” this scene hits me so deeply because, as weird or sick as it sounds, it’s what I wish for. I wish for someone to see me, right at my most vulnerable moment, even hurt, physically or emotionally, and they’d say “everything’s gonna be okay, trust me. Because I love you”.
The worst thing is, I t’ll never happen, because I never let myself be this vulnerable around anyone ever, even if I really want to, I cannot. I tried so many times but I just can’t get past myself, my own guard, to let anyone see anything, that is actually deeply intimate or personal for me.
